Funny

I just got home. From shopping. Oh no. I just can't help myself! I tried to control myself but to no avail... Rusty Lopez has this pair of blue slippers (very very comfortable) which was 50% marked down (from 399.95 to 199.95) . Hay. Bye bye 200 pesos. But it was worth it. I really need some decent slippers! Mui Birkenstock slippers are soo dirty! Hehe. I just have to wear 'em new slippers everyday to remind me to run run away from RJ (tickets). At least I'm running away in style (and comfort!!!). Hahaha. Reward for the week for a job well-done for the past few weeks (studying, healthy lifestyle, no coffee for almost 2 weeks now, no hatred in heart).

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I don't want to think about love anymore. I'm so tired of forcing myself to fall in love to some person. I'm tired of believing that I'll be able to find that special someone who would complete me. I'm having fun being alone. No strings attached. O di ba? Saka na lang. If i'm ready. I haven't found the right one. So, for the 2nd year, walang date si Abi sa Valentine's. I don't mind. At least I don't have to wear nice clothes or be gurly-gurl in front of someone. I'll be contented at school, listening to mam de vera's super super lecture. :) Or maybe, I'll be with my single friends, we can drink till we drop dead (like Bridget Jones). Haha. Besides, valentine's day is soo commercialized.

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Hay. Sleep muna ulit si Abi. All this love stuff is making me nauseous. Haha. Advance happy birthday LeeAnn! I'm so sorry if I sound bitter about Feb. 14. It's not about your birthday but the other occasion. Hahaha.

I'm out. Peace!

Love from above (Man.. This story's true!) *creepy*

There I was minding my own business.

Walking under the moonlight.
I was on my way to my bestfriend's house.

Then it happened.

A whole bunch of paper fell down from heaven.

Ok, maybe the "heaven" part was an exaggeration.

But the point is, somebody threw those paper. (not crumpled ones)

I picked one from the ground and read it under the street light.

It contained..

Broken promises.
Sweet nothings.
And daily entries.

Wow. Somebody threw me cheesy love letters.
And mind you, they were very well-written.
Oh well..

Is it a sign?

Love?

Are you there?

Yohoo?

Bothering me again, eh?

Hay.

Alone again.. Naturally.

Shopaholic.. Lalala. I'm a material girl!

Got a new bag.
It's brown.
Shoulder bag.
From MNG!!
Abi is v. happy.

Hope to buy Elle Bag soon.
Haha.
Prepare 1900.
Haha.
So happy.

WANT: Brown Wedge sandals
Prepare 400
Will buy next week.
Haha.

NEED: Acrylic Pedicure
Prepare 1200 (@ C.A.N.S.)
Nah.
Will Settle for regular one.

The Maid

I watched "The Maid" last night. I got intrigued bout Da Rossi's acting so I bought a pirated copy of her very recent film in Quiapo. I liked the movie but the theme/plot is like a mixture of "The Grudge" and "The Eye." The Grudge --> focused on revenge, "The Eye" --> mainly about superstitions. There you go, The maid is about a maid who's seeking revenge by taking advantage of the Hungry Ghosts Month (superstition). The difference of this film from the two is that it tells us about the social status of Filipinas as maids in other countries (in this case, Singapore). Some of them are maltreated, accused of being malandi (in the film, Da Rossi's amo told this - not in verbatim: "Filipinas are like that. If they find boyfriend they run away.") and in the case of Da Rossi, a "prisoner" of some crazy family in exchange of good fortune for her 7-year old brother (Bayani, who was suffering from a kidney disorder). It's a good film. It's not like those horror movies where a dumb blond gets it or a long haired freak comes out of nowhere. The plot isn't that morbid nor that predictable. So there. You guys should watch it. V. nice.

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Thank God I'm not going to school today. I'm so messed up because I slept at 11 pm last night. Hahaha. Anyway, I went to my little cuzin's house last night. He's soooo vain na! Sabi ba naman: "Ate Abi, picture mo ko." O di ba. He's wearing his dad's shades pa. (See pic below). Cute cute. Tas he knew I was starving na, so he gave me chocolates pa with matching kiss pa yun! Hehehe... Cute!! Wehehe..
O ayun. Bukas or later na ulit. Maliligo na ako. Bili pa ko fishy fish fish. Namatay yung 2 kong fishhhhh! Waaahhh. :(

Strut it boy..



Show me what you got

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I like this song.. Wehehe..

Artist: Nancy Sinatra Lyrics
Song: Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) Lyrics

I was five and he was six
We rode on horses made of sticks
He wore black and I wore white
He would always win the fight

Bang bang, he shot me down
Bang bang, I hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, my baby shot me down.

Seasons came and changed the time
When I grew up, I called him mine
He would always laugh and say
"Remember when we used to play?"

Bang bang, I shot you down
Bang bang, you hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, I used to shoot you down.

Music played, and people sang
Just for me, the church bells rang.

Now he's gone, I don't know why
And till this day, sometimes I cry
He didn't even say goodbye
He didn't take the time to lie.

Bang bang, he shot me down
Bang bang, I hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, my baby shot me down...

Hay.

Melancholy.
Rain.
Cold Weather.
Love.

JGH

Hay. I just got home from southmall... Hay.

Things I bought with my 150 pesos:

1. A fun-size doughnut. Bavarian flavored (my favorite)
2. Regular sized distilled water
3. 0.276 kg of Aji-Ichiban candies
4. The Prince of west-end avenue book
5. My gulay. Pentel black ballpen.
6. Bus and trike ride.

Hay. Based from my research, my crush's full name is not Frederick Ajueta but Frederick Ajuero. His birthday is September 03. Darn. I still like him even if I knew that he has a friggin' girl. Bakit? Hindi ko naman inaagaw eh. Plus he's super nice to my mom (he calls her mommy! FC!) and my tita (he calls her tita-in-law). O diba? Ako na lang yung kulang sa picture! Hehe. I;m sure gonna miss seeing him sa UST. Do you wanna see him? I know his friendster account eh. Hehe. Click this --> ERICK

Hehe. :)

intrams

potah. intrams pala ng DLA (ang aking alma mater)!! hay. balak nga nung mga tao na pumunta eh. gusto kong yayain si steph para punta kami. kaso. wala akong load. wala akong matext na mga tao. pati ang mommy ko. i'm so goddamn lonely. Apat ang sim card ko, lahat walang load. pano kasi ako magloload ehh, 1thou bill lang ang meron ako (wag nio akong sundan. ung 1thou na yun pambayad ko pa sa PLM). Pano ako susuklian ng tindera?! Tas ung latest acquisition ko na sim card eh ndi ko alam ung #. nakalimutan kong tanong kay leeann kanina. hay. ndi ko tuloy mapa-loadan. sayang ang 377 free text na natitira! (grabe. 700+ pa dati ung free txt nun aaaahh?!) hay. super sad tuloy si abi. kelangan ko pa namang magtext dahil kelangan kong malaman yung details about justin and jas. hay. tas si tita nagtext na din. anooo baaa. kainis ah. ah lam ko na. tatawagan ko yung tita ko na nag-loan sa akin nung sim na madaming free text para text si mami para pa-loadan yung fone ko. haaaay. hirappp. hay. fone. fone. fone. :( bakit nag-expire ang load niyo? kung kelan ko kayo kelangannn. putragis. at bakit 1thou na lang yung natira sa wallet ko??? ay oo. ako nga pala yung nagpapabaon sa sarili ko. pucha. tatlong araw na akong walang baon ah.

Ai. Teka. Ndi pa ako naghahapunan ah? Bakit alang tumatawag sa akin para kumain? Darn it. Ayoko na dito. :( miss ko na ang mommy ko. mommy. mommy!!!!!!!!!! umuwi ka naaaaaaaa! mapapraning ako pag laging ganito. may sakit pa ako. putragis. putragis. pootrahgeese. umuwi ka naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Cries. :'( Mommy ko. Mommy. Alagaan mo ko. May sakit na si abi.

You are my sunshine

You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

I miss my mommy. So bad. :(

Have you tried googling your name?

OMG. I did. And guess what I found? My old blog! Man. I seem so happy and full of love back then. What happened to me?? UP sucked life out of me. Or time made me more picky with the guys I date? Hell. Hahaha. Oh I also found a webpage dedicated to our block (not the egroups). Weird! I guess it was Aris Antoni who made that page. Hahaha.

So try googling your name. Malay mo, may secret admirer ka pala online. Hahahaha.

My name's goog-able! Cool!

Sound trip @ 6 am

Hay. badtrip. Nagising ako ng maaga pero ndi pa ako dapat gising!!!! Tawag kasi ng tawag sa phone si mami eh wala namang sumasagot. Hayyyy. E ndi na ako makatulog dahil ayoko na. Hay naku. Sound trip na lang ako. Hmm... Alam ko na. Papanoorin ko na lang yung "A Very Long Engagement.." Hay. Dapat ung Amelie ung papanoorin ko kaso hindi ko pa nakukuha kay eyps. Haaayy...... Tinatamad na akong pumasok. Haaaayy...

Woo!

Pacquiao won by TKO at round 10!

There so many speculations and rumors but he proved them wrong!

Torete

Oh yeah. May gf na si Papa Erick. Bullcrap.

Hay.

I am back from the grave.

After a seemingly long week spent in a poorly ventilated, highly polluted hospital room, here I am writing this entry. So what's new? Here's my list of what happened to me this past week:

1. First on the list. The most controversial "runaway" incident. I ran away from home last Wednesday. I really don't want to elaborate the details (why I ran away...) because it's not very pleasant. All you need to know is: I ran away Wednesday night wearing only my p.e. shirt, and my blue shorts and I never felt so alone in my entire life. I went back home last Friday because I was already sick. Me and my mom never talked about what happened and I thank her for doing that. So please. Don't ask me why I ran away.

2. I fell inlove. Actually it's too early to use the term "love" but I would like to believe that I really am inlove for the nth time round. I met (no, wait. erase.), I saw this intern guy from UST. He's about my height, he wears glasses, fair-skinned and he has a nice hair. He's not the pretty boy type but he looks nice (v. presentable). He's already a 4th year med student in UST and he graduated as a Physical Therapist from... UP MANILA! Wow. Small world. We never had an actual conversation yet because I'm too nervous to talk to him. I didn't notice him before but because my aunt was constantly teasing me about what if's (o pano kung yang si Eric eh maging boyfriend mo.. Blah blah blahhh) (BTW, his name is Frederick Ajueta) and I sort-off fell in-like (no such word as in-like abi) with this guy. I can't come back to the hospital because of my mom. She banned me from going there because I got sick ('that place is so polluted and it's filled with sick people.. blah blah blahhh..'). So I may never get to meet Eric. I like him. Hay. Regrets. Hay. I should've asked for his number. Pakapalan na ng mukha. Hay.

3. I can't think of anything else. Eric.... Ericcccc! Damn it. I need to get you out of my head...

Deo Gratias.

Daydream

Yeah.

I bailed out on watching my aunt in the hospital today. I need sleep, decent bath, clothes and moisturizer (just kidding about the last one). My mom's there anyway and I'll be dropping by tomorrow after class. I have so many things that I need to do but somehow...

I still managed to think about other stuffs.. I really wish it's summer already. Daym. I need to get in shape cuz I really wanna surf this summer! Sun, sand and water. Oh yeahh.. Plus I'm looking forward to spending the rest of my vacation in my mom's maiden house in Batangas. They got the best beaches there! Especially the one that my relatives own!! Yup, you heard me right! I wrote it here last year that my mom discovered some long lost relatives who own a beach resort. They offered us free accommodations this summer! Whohee! Psyched!

Hay. So I really need to prepare. I'm surfing on ebay for stuffs I'll be needing this summer. Sweet. Somebody's selling a pair of authentic Havaianas slippers (brand new) for only 250 pesos. Wow. It's in my size too! Meant to be! I dont know if my mom will allow me to buy that since it's from the internet. I just have to talk to her later.

Now I'm feeling guilty! How could I think of summer when my aunt's still on the hospital. Hay... :c

I hear your call.

Photo taken last year in Batangas.

Hay.

I think I owe everybody an explanation as to why Abi (me) declared Hiatus. Well. This week, I'll be taking a vacation from being a responsible and loving daughter to fulfill my destiny. To become an irresponsible, bitch that I was born in the first place... What?! Haha. I'm just kidding. I'll be assuming yet another role in our family. I'll be sacrificing sleep, precious internet & t.v. time for my beloved auntie. In case you read my previous entry... She was already admitted to the hospital this afternoon. She'll be having her surgery this Tuesday.. And so being the most responsible and unsociable human being that I am, I volunteered myself to be the quote and quote watcher. I'll go straight from school to the hospital everyday and spend the rest of eternity (hehehe) serving her. Slavery? Nahh.. I love my auntie so much and she did so many things for our family, so it's just fair for me to give up.. my social life (as if I do have one) and my rest period. Hay. Oh well. All for the love of family. Awwww.... I'm sooooo nice. Yuck. Too much self-praise. Hehe.

Hay. So that's it! Hiatus mode for one week!

P.S. MCATs --> SUNDAYYYYYY!!! Fuck.
Saturday --> Physio lab exam!

I really need to have coffee.
StarbucksTM to the rescueeeee!!! Hahahaha.

jaded

Dahil "in-demand" si Abi next week, pansamantalang HIATUS ang blog na ito. Sa Sabado ng hapon ang resume ng kwentuhan at tsismisan.

Salami! (going bulilit.. going bulilit... la! lalalala...)

Relapse..

I just woke up. Hay. I had a relapse last night. I got so tired and I forgot to take my medicine yesterday morning and forgot to bring for lunch. I went to UST yesterday to accompany my auntie. She was supposed to be admitted yesterday but apparently, all the doctors who needed to sign her clearance (for surgery) were in a meeting. Since we live nearby (yah right..), they sent us home anyway. Oh ja. Vellie nice.

Then I went to SM to accompany my mom. She needed to buy all her requirements for the cosmetology class that she's taking every Saturday. It's like the world's turned upside-down! I assumed the responsible and mature mom while she became my doting, irresponsible and weird daughter. What kind of a student buys all the requirements a night before class? Ohmigod. My mom. Hay. It was unfortunate that SM didn't have all the stuffs in her list. Thank goodness HBC (the one-stop shop for all your kikay needs) in Value Point was still open. But we failed to acquire black polish and exfoliating gloves... Hay. That's 'nuf punsihment to my mom.

Anyway, I ended buying some stuffs for myself as well. I bought "Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind" VCD because it was on sale. I bought it for 99 pesos only. I watched it this morning and I enjoyed it. Wow. After watching that movie, well. I was left wishing that there was a company (such as Lacuna Inc.) that could erase a part of your memory. Well, everybody here knows what part of my memory I'll want to erase. Hahaha.

I got sooo tired yesterday so I got sick.. again. Darn it. But I'm ok now. Just need to take it sloww baby... Haha.. No seriously. I'm not allowed to go outside the house the whole weekend. My gulay. Imma prisonerrrr! Halp! Get me out of here. I don't belong hereeeee!

Hehe.

Post Script:

Shai, hey hey! for some reason I can't place a comment on your site. I really appreciate calling me your "friend" even if i'm this totally complete stranger. And no, I don't think that you're some evil girl. Girls can be crazy sometimes. J/k! Hehe. Anyway, I got your number in my comments box. Don't worry, if i'm not busy within this week, i'll send you a message (like: 'shai, what's your favorite scary movie?' and i'll turn out to be a psycho killer. Hahaha. Just kidding!)). My life isn't perfect. I just chose to live life the best way I can. I shut off all the "bad energies" and horrible moments in my life because they're not worth it! :)

I'm sick

Really. Every part of my body hurts. :(
My eyebags are starting to show.
My eyes are watery and my nose is stuffy.
I'm so sick.. :(

Would anybody like to take care of me?
:(

Minsan sa buhay ng tao...

Nais kong ibahagi sa inyo ang piling mga letratong kinuha ko mula sa aking telepono. Pagpasensyahan niyo po sana dahil mababa lamang ang resolution ng aking camera kaya hindi ito kasing-ganda ng mga letrato na inyong nakikita kadalasan sa pahina (web page) ng ibang tao.

Ang pamagat ng koleksyon ng mga letratong ito ay: Minsan sa buhay ng tao...

"Paa"

Ang paa ay instrumento upang marating ang dapat paroonan.
Gamit na gamit ito sa mga taong hindi mapirmi sa isang lugar.
Iba't iba ang kulay, kapal ng kalyo at haba ng kuko.

"Paghihintay"

Maaga pa lamang ay nakapila na ang mga taong ito.
Buhat pa sa malalayong lugar at iba't ibang estado sa buhay.
Narito sila para sa iisang dahilan.. Ang makamura sa check-up
Susuungin ang ano mang pila at pagod...
Ganyan ang pagtitiyaga ng mga taong ito.
Nakakalungkot mang isipin..
Pati pala buhay mo kelangan mo pang ipila..

"Laro"

Ang mga paslit na ito'y wala pang kamuwang-muwang..
Wala pang alam sa mundong kanilang ginagalawan.
Walang isipin, walang bayarin at walang problema...
Ang tanging bagay lamang na mahalaga ay kanilang paglalaro.

"Deboto"

Tuwing Miyerkoles, lahat ng mga tao ay dumadagsa sa Baclaran.
Mga panata, deboto.. Ilan sa tawag sa mga taong ito.
Bumibisita sila sa bahay ng Panginoon para sa isang dahilan...
Ito ay ang tumugon sa tawag ng Diyos sa kanila.

"Tulala"

Ilan lamang ang mga taong ito sa mga "deboto."
Marahil ay humihingi sila ng awa o nagpapasalamat sa Poon.
Relihiyoso ~ Matinding paninindigan sa awa ng Diyos na Maykapal.

"Kandila"

Ang kandila ay simbolo ng pag-asa.
Ang mga taong itong nagtitirik ng kandila ay umaasa.
Umaasa sa biyaya ng Diyos.
"Pag-asa for only one peso donation."

"Alitaptap"

Aandap-andap ang mga kandilang nakabalot sa tela.
Wari'y mga alitap-tap na lumilipad sa hangin.
Mahina ang ilaw, subali't pagsama-samahin mo'y malakas.
Parang sa tao,
Ang pagkakaisa'y nakakapagpalakas ng isang samahan.

Photo credits:

Ang lahat ng mga letratong inyong nakita dito ay kuha ni: Thorabeech
Edited sa Adobe Photoshop 7.0
Hosted ng Photobucket
Copyrighted 2006

Salamat sa pagbisita!

Bummer

I've recently acquired a pair of white Birkenstock slippers. My mom bought for me this afternoon when she went to Makati (without me). I'm planning to wear it tommorrow with my "a-bum-ination" green capri pants. I called it such (I got the name abumination from Ross' blog) because this capri pants seem to "accentuate" my gift of round ass (there. I said the word ~ asssss!). I don't wear it to school because: 1. I just salvaged the goddamn pants from my fashion grave. and 2. It didn't fit before. So much for the abumination green capri pants... I'm gonna watch The Chronicles of Narnia: Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe tomorrow. I'm getting a lot of bad feedbacks from Harry Potter fanatics. Duh? What do you expect? In terms of fantasy books, the people are always comparing JK Rowling's Harry Potter with CS Lewis' Chronicles. It's not fair because both authors deserve the attention from book lovers. They both came up with such stories of different plot. Well. I'll be the judge tomorrow. Hehe. :) So my day tomorrow is planned. Tomorrow, I'll be going to PLM to submit my med requirements and wait for Jeff (we'll be watching Narnia at 1:20 pm ~ Rob place, Ermita). I heard that they'll be watching The Family Stone afterwards (Christine's treat). I ain't sure if I'm gonna watch Family Stone because as what I've said before... One movie per week (money!! precioussss). Besides, Narnia will probably end at 4:00 pm so I don't think I can watch another one (I'm trying to avoid the "rush hour").

So that's it. :) i'll be posting my review (if I have one.. ;)) tomorrow. I need to finish sewing my DIY purse kit. Wait.... hep. hep.. You heard me right. I'm sewing a DIY purse. It's a tough job. Tsk tsk. :)

Weird neighbors...

Before I sleep, I would like to share to you the magical transcript of my neighbors' conversation last night:
(Not verbatim)

(around 11 pm)

Girl 1: Hello? Hello? Ayan maayos na ba ang reception? Naririnig mo na ba ako?

(I heard giggles)

Girl 2: Oooyyy.... (Teasing)

(WTF? Big deal?)

(Then I went to the family room to use the computer, the next thing I heard was...)

Girl 1: (with Bisayan accent) Ang height ko? 4'11 ako. Mahaba ang buhok ko, gumagamit nga ako ng Rejoice kaya long and selky (????) sha. Mataba? Ay hindi ako mataba. Katamtaman lang... 28 lang ang waistline ko no!

(Oh wow. Next time that i'll be in their street, I'm gonna look for a girl with that description.)

(Then I fell asleep for a coupola minutes then this is what I heard next...)

Some girl: (again with Bisayan accent) Hello? Puwede ba kay Joy?

(Response)

Ahh. Walang joy dyan?

(Response)

Ok... Di mo ba ako kilala?

(Response) (Syempre hindi. Tonta ka day. Tonta! Wala ngang kilalang JOY, ikaw pa ang makilala???!!!)

Ahh... Ok. Puwede bang makipag-phone pal na lang?

(anooooo?! Tangina! ~sori sa mura~ Ano ba un? Kung ako ang kausap mo baka binagsakan na kita ng telepono! Adik! Langya, ano ba yan..!)

And that was it. I was too overwhelmed with what I heard and I decided to just continue answering my laboratory manual. They were talking about Jorross and Roxanne (Star Circle) and it was too much for me to listen. I'm gonna sleep early later so I won't hear any of their "magical conversations." Hello?? Puwede makipag-phonepal? Noooooooooooo!

San ka pa? Sang village ang may mga taong nakikipagphonepal ng hatinggabi? Alam ko yung mga sekyu lang ang ganun. At take note, bored ang mga gwardyang yun at hndi bangag. Oh wow. Grabe. At least "novelty" ang environment ko. Wow. Wooow.

Nababangag na ko... At hindi dahil sa natulog ako ng 1:30 am ah. Tsk tsk.

Masakit ang ulo ko...

Hay. Sobra. As in... Pero ito lang ang masasabi ko. Punyetang mga kapitbahay yan o! Ang galing mambulahaw sa hatinggabiiiiiiii! Sakit ng ulo ko! Buwiset!

Another boring afternoon

I'm here at Alva (computer shop near our school) right now. Obviously, I can't post the pictures from my birthday yet since they have no bluetooth connection here or an ir-port. So i'll just post 'em maybe later if i'm not that busy. Ugh. The keyboard here sucks... What do you expect from a computer shop like this? Especially this one which is also a call-center station by night (yup, it's true..!) Oh well. I'm just plain bored so I'm writing something here. Hay.

Hay. I really wanna watch King Kong. But I'll be watching Narnia this Wednesday, so one movie at a time. Tsk tsk. :(

Gonna wrap this up. I can't write with all this people round me staring at my monitor. Privacy people!!

birthday details

Will be posting details either later or tommo eve. All I know is my stomach's gonna burst with food. Oh God. My little cuzin greeted me at Yellow cab. I was really embarrassed. He screamed out: "Happy Birthday Ate Abi!" And all of the customers there just stared me. Like in any mo they're gonna ask me to buy their food. Good thing the pizza (Take note: I bought NY Classic, 18", pictures will be posted) was already for pick-up. Oh God. My lil cuzin is soo cute.. He kissed me on my cheeks pa. My bestfriend and his beau will be dropping by maybe 7ish to eat what's left of the feast. She promise to bring red wine later. Ugh. I still prefer the sake she made us drink last christmas. Oh well. I'll be leaving in few minutes, Imma gonna watch a movie with mom and prolly drop by at Starbucks to have coffee (wow, so much for being healthy this year). I got what I wished for. Not totally, but I'm living a dream right now. Living the rich lifestyle. Carefree. Ha! Not totally irresponsible, but i'm close. Yup yup! Later senoritos, hasta manana senoritas! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBBBBBBIIIIIIIIII!
Oh yeah.

Happy birthday..

Happy birthday to me.. Happry birthday abi!

Hay

Hay. So bored. I wish I just went to Jeff's condo. Hay. My blockmates are there prolly having fun. But I can't go cuz even if I have money to buy food, transpo, gimik... My mom would definitely kill me if I go without asking permission. I'm dead meat if she sees that I'm not home. Yeah. She still treats me like i'm 9 or 11 years old. I can't go anywhere without asking permission from her and my dad. I can't party legally. I can't have anything alcoholic put into my mouth because i'm not allowed to be drunk. I can't go home extremely late except when I'm doing thesis. Darn it. Some life i'm living. Tomorrow, i'll be 20 years old and for once, I'd like to do something nasty. I'm Miss-too-goody-shoes to everyone. Responsible, nice, ms. good mood... Ugh. They're nice comments about me, but sometimes I want to be this hip, cool teenager. I ain't gonna be young forever (except if they invent an age-reversal machine in the near future), and my point is, I can't party or enjoy my life when I'm already a med student or a doctor. I'm much more focused at that time. Hay. I wish I could be somebody else just once. Experience how it is to have a real and exciting life, even if it it's just for one night. Yup. That's my birthday wish. But it's not possible. I've been so accustomed with all of this, that I'm afraid to go beyond my established norms. I'm not a rebel. Guess I'll be stuck forever wondering how it's like. Ugh. That's my goal for this year. Try something new and know how to make a compromise to parents. V. good. Ugh. But now, I'm still stuck here. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm sick and tired of watching re-runs in cable. ughhh. So bored. bored. bored. bored.

I wonder what the guys are doing at jeff's? Hmm..

I'm really pissed off. Really.

Birthday girl tomorrow...

Tomorrow's the big day. Hurrah hurrah. (Not.) Actually, I'm not sure if it'll be a happy day tomorrow. Hay. Me and my dad are not in good terms (we're not technically speaking to each other since christmas). Plus, I have this bad incident with justin yesterday (we had a fight.. or ako lang yun) and I decided to stop talking to him. I mean it. It's been like almost 24 hours since I sent him a message and I didn't check his friendster. I don't know but this maybe the start of a whole new thing. Finally, I can move on. As in for keeps. Hay. I just feel bad because I did try to be friends with him. I can't do anything about that anymore. I'm so tired of trying. Maybe this is the sign that I've been asking God for so long. Hay. Another chapter ended. :(

The earlier post was supposed to be posted last Thursday but due to some technical/network error, I wasn't able to publish it. Thank God I'm using wbloggar (thanks JC for recommending this program), because I was able to save my post and publish it at a later date (which is today). Hay.

I can't go out today because:

1. I have no money.
2. My mom's not here. All of a sudden, she decides to take up cosmetology.
3. It's going to rain.
4. I have nowhere to go. All of the malls here suck.
5. My bestbud steph have Saturday classes. So I can't go to her house and watch DVD with her family.
6. I need to finish my laboratory manual in Bio122.
7. I need to finalize "planning" for my birthday. Seriously. I just want to sleep tomorrow.

Hay. I'm penniless and nobody to talk to.

Ulan
Cueshe

Lagi nalang umu-ulan
Parang walang katapusan
Tulad ng paghihirap ko ngayon
Parang walang humpay
Sa kabila ng lahat ng aking pagsisikap
Na limutin ka ay di parin magawa

Hindi naman ako tanga
Alam ko na wala ka na
Pero mahirap lang na tanggapin
Di na kita kapilingIniwan mo ako nag-iisa
Sa gitna ng dilim at basing-basa pa sa ulan

Pero huwag mag-alala
di na kita gagambalain
Alam ko naman ngayon
may kapiling ka nang-iba

Tanging hiling ko sayo
Na tuwing umu-ulan
Maalala mo sanang may
Nagmamahal sayo. Ako.....
Lalalalalalalalala....

Hay... A technical post.

Today, I found myself actually enjoying Ma'am De Vera's toxic toxic class of animal physiology. Although I wasn't really 100% listening to the discussion (I was multi-tasking again: blab,write, laugh, and listen mode.) I learned so many things from her. I have summed up all of these into a list, so you guys enjoy the following fun facts:

1. Technically, you don't "emote" by your heart, instead by your limbic system (composed of olfactory lobe, the "hippocampus", the ever-famous "amygdala" and basal ganglion). This system is responsible for our "primal" emotions. What are these "primal" emotions you may ask....? This includes: fear, sexual drive (I pipped out "lurrrve!" but it wasn't actually a primal emotion), anger, anxiety and others. In addition, I watched "Chemistry of Love" last February 14 (2004 I think) and the narrator told that the amygdala is the one responsible for triggering the "love" sensation that we feel. Sorry for those hopeless romantics because your ever-famous cheesy line: "I love you from the bottom of my heart" is a goddamn misnomer. It's supposed to be like this: "I love you from the cortex of my amygdala." (it's not pleasing to the ear) But seriously, what's the point of telling that to your love one? (unless you're both a science geek) We've associated the heart (which is just a muscle) to love and for me, it would be taboo for people to stop being romantic and just be science freaks. Life will not be great if there's no concept of romance. You stop being happy because you live without purpose. Objectivity vs. Subjectivivty. Hay.

2. So much for emotions... Do you wonder why alcoholic beverages have a quick effect on our motor responses (i.e. movement) compared to nicotine in cigarettes? It's because alcohol readily diffuses (passes) to the Blood-Brain Barrier (epithelial lining which prevents the blood to come in contact with our brain). In contrast with cigarettes, the nicotine in our bloodstream cannot pass through this so-called barrier. So there. Kahit mag-yosi ka pa ng isang sako, hindi ka mababangag, mamamatay ka lang sa emphysema.

3. Another popular belief: "When you sniff Rugby (contact cement), it would destroy your brain." was also disproven in our class. The chemical gas which Rugby emits cannot penetrate the BBB (Blood brain barrier), so it has no direct effect on your brain. But I'm not saying that Rugby is allll goood... Addiction to sniffing Rugby is bad because it sort-of have a bad additive effect on your body. I don't know exactly what Rugby can do to your mind or body, but I think (theory) that it has a hallucinatory effect (like LSD and other popular "dangerous drugs") and it whacks your head (heaven...!) (sabi kasi nila, pag naka-Rugby ka daw, feeling mo busog ka.. But recently, the Rugby company (Rugby is a brand, contact cement is its generic name, mind you.) told the masses that they had already removed the "addictive" chemical substance in their product. I don't know what chemical substance, but when I took a sniff (uh-oh abi, Rugby girl) of the so-called "reformulated" Rugby, it smelled the same from the original. Well. I don't know. Maybe they were secretly putting magic dust (shabu) on their product before as some sort-of mind controlling device (just kidding! I don't want to get a law suit from Rugby!).

Oh well. I'm really tired of typing, so I'll be posting the rest tomorrow (I don't have classes on Friday). Enjoy! :)

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Post-script:

Last Tuesday, animal physiology laboratory:

Ma'am De Vera: Oh syempre pag nasira na yung CNS (Central Nervous System), mawawalan na ang isang hayop ng sense of....
Class: (in chorus)...balance!
Abi (disturbed): ...direction. (serious tone pa un a)
LeeAnn: Tumawa.
Dianne: Tumawa.
Jian: Tumawa.
Abi (disturbed pa din): Bakit?

(Note: We were discussing balance. Ewan ko ba kung bakit nasama yung direction? Patawa. Para akong bangag.)

Deboto

Hay. Kakauwi ko lang galing sa Baclaran. Sobrang pagod kaya sorry walang matinong post. Bukas na lang po!


Shai: I'll link you too! Thanks for calling me "a friend." :)

Fruits of sleeplessness

Prose on MMFF:

1.
If gore is what you seek,
Then 'Kutob' is your pick.
Marvin's a psycho,
Kills everyone but the ho.

2.
The rat race is on indeed
And Enteng's on the lead
MMFF awards night will be a funfare,
But nobody will really care.

Haha. :) I'll submit this to Jessica Zafra's blog site

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Hay.

I feel so bad right now.

Thanks jeff for the good write-up.

Nakakabagot.

Ewan ko ba. Bakit ako ganito. Wala lang talaga siguro ako sa mood.

Hay ulit.

kakatapos ko lang tapusin yung pahabol ko para sa report sa animal physio bukas. hay may gulay.. sana makapag-paacetate pa ako tomorrow morning! achoo.. hay. sisipunin ata ako. hay. oh well. :p bukas na lang ulit pag-uwi ko. sniff sniff. maggagawa pa ako ng reporter's notes para sa physio. karir kasi ang gagawin ko para sa procedures eh. dapat with matching demo pa. kaya dapat maaga akong makatulog para mahiram ko yung achoo! sorry ulit. yung kymograph sa stockroom.. hehe! make your group mates proud abi! hehe. till tomorrow. babushka!

Holiday withdrawal syndrome

Hay. Kahit ano pang gawin at isipin ko... Wala na akong magagawa dahil simula ngayon may pasok na kami. Hay. Feeling ko, ito na ata ang pinakamaiksi kong christmas break sa buong buhay ko. Pramis! Ngayon ko lang naranasan na pumasok agad after New Year. Nakakatamad nga eh. Dati kasi, sa haba ng bakasyon, bumabalik na yung drive ko at naatat na akong pumasok, kaso ngayon sobrang bitin. Nag-dalawang isip nga ako kaninang umaga na huwag munang pumasok ng isang linggo! Manonood ako ng sine the whole week at walang gagawin hanggang mainip. Hay. Kaso hindi naman puwede yun dahil mapapagalitan ako ng nanay ko. Ayaw na ayaw pa naman niya na umaabsent ako dahil tinatamad ako. Hay... Nakakatamad talaga.

Ayun. Sorry kung tungkol sa katamaran ang post ko. Tinatamad talaga ako ngayong araw eh. Ngayon lang to. Susme.

Narinig niyo na ba ang pamahiin na: "kung ano yung ginawa or inasal mo noong January 1, magiging ganun ka sa buong taon."??? Nakakatawa kasi kahapon ito ang ginawa ko:

1. Natulog
2. Natulog
3. Natulog
4. Kumain
5. Natulog
6. Natulog

Ibig sabihin ba noon, isang taon akong magiging antukin? Hay. Pero kahit tulog ako kahapon, sinikap kong maging masaya. Syempre. Malay mo totoo pala yung pamahiin na yun. Ayoko namang maging miserable sa buong taon di ba!? :)

Maiba ako ulit. Noong Sabado, napanood ko yung re-run ng Scrubs. Napaisip lang ako dun sa narration nung bidang lalaki dun tungkol sa mga sakripisyo ng mga med student para maging duktor. Hay. Yung babae kasi dun (si Elliot) iniwan yung boyfriend niya dahil kelangan niyang maging focused sa pag-aaral niya. Hay. Napaisip ako tuloy.. Kaya ko kayang i-give up yung ganitong lifestyle para maabot ko ang pangarap ko na maging doktor. Hay. Pero nakuha ko na yung calling ko eh. Kasi napanaginipan ko noon na hindi raw ako Bio tas hindi rin ako puwedeng mag-med. Ewan ko, pero paggising ko, ang sama sama ng pakiramdam ko. Yung parang ang sama ng loob mo, yung feeling na may problema kahit wala, iyon... Yun yung naramdaman ko. Naisip ko na, sa med lang ako magiging masaya talaga. Yun yung paraan ko para makatulong.. at syempre, (pansariling dahilan) para yumaman.

Hay. Ewan ko ba. Ayoko ng palang maging Forensics expert. I don't have enough guts to deal with corpses everyday eh. Gusto ko ng magigng parang si Dr. House o maging part ng NIH. Haha. Sorry kung naiimpluwensyahan ako ng mga palabas sa TV.. pero ito lang ang sigurado ako ngayon. GUSTO KONG MAGING DOKTOR! Ang sarap kaya ng feeling pag tinawag na akong: Dok Abi. Lintek. Nag-ambisyon na naman ako. Dok Abi. Dok Abi. Dok Abi.... Sarap pakinggan. Hehe. Dra. Abigail Ruidera M.D.

Ang Taray!

In State of Denial

No. We don't have classes yet.

'Nuf said.