In a rage

Excuse me but this post is not for the weak-hearted nor those who haven't seen the bitch in me.

Screw those freakin' women with blue collar jobs! The nerve! Ihatehatehatehatehate their guts! Bitches! (ok well not of all them)

So what am I talking about??

Earlier this evening, we decided to drop by VALUE POINT Superstore to inquire if they have a freaking pin so we could pump air in our balls (basketballs, volleyballs, you know what I mean..). My mom asked a coupola girls who were lazily (take note!) folding their towel merchandise. There was no store music playing at that moment nor they weren't that busy. Only one girl responded and asked her companions if they knew whether their freaking department store was selling that freaking pin. And d'you know what they did? They freaking snobbed my mom! My mom was just standing there the whole time waiting for their response! For short, they weren't paying attention at all! I mean, the least they could do is open their MOUTHS and tell something. Unless they're deaf or speech impaired, I would've understand their situation. But noooo. They just stood there and continued folding towels. Screw them! Not because they're not getting enough pay or they have so many family problems that doesn't mean that they ould take all their dspair in the customer! We were not asking that pin to be free, we're willing to P-A-Y, pay! for the freaking pin! I hate them so much right now.

HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!

Sorry if this post came out... BAD. >.<'

RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE!!!!!!

How time flies..

I've discovered some of my high school batchmates' friendster accounts.

Ito lang ang masasabi ko..

Oh kaybilis ng oras.

Grabe. May mga graduate na sa kanila at yung iba ay may work na. Tas yung mga inakala mong mahinhin, aba may boyps at gelps na! hay. and to think high school batchmates ko yung mga yun. Baka isang araw sa aking office (naks, office daw) nakita ko naman yung mga college buddies ko, may asawa't anak na! Hay. Ayoko pang tumanda!! Hay. But it's so inevitable. Next week thesis defense na, and then finals tas graduation na. Ang bilis bilis! Parang noon lagi akong tumatambay sa bahay ni stephanie para makinood ng cable. Wala pa kaming interes sa mga guys o sa pakikipag-date o sa make-up. Tas ngayon, grabe. Ininvite na niya ako sa wedding nila ni jonas (planned!) sa 2011. Dati sobrang immature namin! Hindi namin maintindihan kung bakit ba kelangang magsipag sa pag-aaral. Di rin namin alam kung gaano kahalaga yung value ng pera. Tas ngayon iba na. Parang andaming naiisip na problema (naging major issue na ang perang pang-gimik), kahit yung mga hindi naman dapat pinoproblema sinasama! Hay. Paano pa kaya 10 years or at least 5 years from now? Mas madami kaya akong problema? Ano na kaya ang issue by that time? Buhay pa kaya ako nun? (Sana naman no!). Kung meron lang way para makabalik or maka-move forward sa time dimension... Ang sarap balik-balikan ng mga alaala ng nakaraan. Kung paano ka nadapa at nagkamali noon.. Yung mga masasayang alaala nung bata ka pa. Pero ang sarap din namang malaman kung ano yung hinaharap mo. Kung magtatagumpay ka ba or hindi. Kung magkakapamilya ka ba o hindi? Hay.

Parang wala akong gagawin ah at puro ako pag-iisip! Mag-aaral pa ako sa animal physio! Dapat maganda yung makuha kong score dahil feeling ko ambaba ng score ko nung 2nd exam. Hay. Ilang chapter pa ba tong aaralin ko?? (buklat ang makapal na hand-outs). Ay mukhang marami pa a! Hay. Bukas pala makukuha yung pictures sa Great Image (yung parang kapamilya drama series ang pose namin). Buti pa yung mga mag-fifield trip lang bukas!! (Oi leeann, pasalubong ko??) (April, marvin, jeff, chel --> May swimming charvaness pala kayo bukas sa Laguna!) hay. Sige na. :D babu!

P.S. I miss taking pictures. :C One of these days, I shall take my camera from its dusty grave. :D

Man..

^_^

nuf said.
did i say anything?

fallen.
inlove.

l.o.v.e

Now you're gone, what am I gonna do
I'm sooo empty my heart, my soul can't go on
Go on baby without you....
Rainy days fade away
when you come around
say your here to stay
With me boy
I don't want you to leave me
I need you.........

From: love by Keyshia cole..

Sandaling tumigil ang mundo ko..

Bakit ako nasaktan nung nalaman ko na chickboy ka?

Bakit nagalit ako ng nalaman ko na maaring may kaagaw ako sa yo?

Bakit hinihintay ko yung mga messages mo?

Bakit nakangiti ako pag naalala kita?

Bakit...?

Mahal na ba kita?

Shit.

Ayoko nito.

A salute to our noses.

I just finished watching some show in National Geographic. (Background screams: "Geek! Geeeeeekkk!") They talked about scent and how it affects your emotions. I really enjoyed the part where some girl fell in love with this guy because they love each other's scent. But I felt sad to learn that there are really people who can't smell. I mean that sucks because you can't enjoy your food! You can't enjoy walks because you just look at people, you just feel but still, deep down there's something missing. In the said show, they featured one guy who was suffering from such condition, and he got so depressed! He can't socialize with people, he can't eat and one by one his memories of the past were fading. WTF? Memories fading due to damaged olfactory sense? Oh yeah. I remembered my professor in Animal Physiology discussing something about the role of "scent" in triggering our brain to remembercertain memories. Hay. That's really really sad. But the good thing was, at the end of the show, he got his sense of smell back. The intense smell of coffee sort-of revived his dying olfactory sense. Boy, he was so happy to regain his precious sense of smell. I sure hope I don't get that condition...

Anyway to check a brief program description of the show, click hereee --> LINKKKKK!!!

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One more thing...

Hay. I'm kinda "in-like" (is there such thing as in-like??) with this guy right now. I don't like to elaborate much because I don't want to jinx it or anything. All you need to know is this guy is willing to take care of me (daw) and he won't ever leave me (daw). I mean I'm not sure yet. Even if I knew him for several years now I don't know if I can trust him. I really don't want to get hurt anymore (I know it's not possible for me to not get hurt, duh?! Love = pain + joy) but a part of me wants to just take the plunge and give in. I really like this guy because he's so caring.. He always remind me to eat on time, to take care of myself of always and sleep early. I missed having someone telling me of those things! Dilemma. dilemma. dilemma! I want to trust this guy, and be in a relationship! I want to be vulnerable once more. I need someone to take care of me. Tell me always that I'm the best. Hold my hand when things go wrong. I need more time! Pero baka mag-ala Justin din kami nito. I made Justin wait wait wait then ayun... Hay. Kanta na lang ako. Let's take it slow, so slow...

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Last..

I watched "Close to You" last Wednesday (with Jessa, Jeff, Rach, and April). I really liked that movie because it wasn't the fairy-tale slash uberly cheesy type. It can happen in real life (hindi ko nga lang na-gets kung paano naging mag-on si Sam at si Bea, hinalikan lang siya, sila na agad.. Ganoon ba yun??). I enjoyed it because there were no over-mushy lines and it was so refreshing (hindi kasi heavy drama ang dating nito)! I commend Sam Milby for trying his very best to speak Tagalog, Bea and John Lloyd for acting naturally! Hay. I suggest you guys watch it. It's a nice film. :D Hay. :D

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Yun muna ulit. I need to read my hand-outs in physio. :D Exam sa Monday!! :((

Jollibee on wheels..

Nakita ko si Jollibee kanina!

Nakasakay ng bike!!!!

Wahaha. Kala nio bangag ako?

Wala lang akong nakuhang pic pero totoo.

Marketing strategy ata yun ng Jollibee eh.

Nakakatawa talaga.

Pramis.

Saan ka pa?

Bubuyog na nakasakay sa bike!

Onli in the Philippines to!

Hahahaha.

(Totoo po ang post na ito. Nakita ko si Jollibee sa Zapote kanina.)

New post

Wow. It's been a while since I wrote somthing here. I've been very very busy for the past few days. Hay. Poster exhibit last wednesday, interview at PLM, studying for a goddamn exam in physio. I'm so tired! Thank God I have no classes today... Yifee! I can sleep all day and nothing to worry about. Hay.... So ano, uumpisahan ko na ba ang worry-free Friday ko?? Maya na.. Hehe. I wanna write some things pa before I go to sleep. :D

First off, I love my blockmates!!! Thanks everyone for accepting me as your kapamilya for four years. Hay. Even if were gonna go on with our separate ways after april, I hope we'll remain as good friends. Sabi nga ni Dax: "Nobody gets left behind" dapat. Love you guys! Block three the best pa rin!

Uhm.. Un muna. Nawala bigla yung momentum. :D Maya na lang yung medyo sensible na post, ayt?? :D

Nervous

I'm scared.

Eep! I'm taking MCATs tomorrow.

Eeeep!

Hayz.

Do you believe in destiny?

I mean do you think things happen for a reason?

Well I do.

Last night, my friend April called my mom to inform/remind her that the MCATs are scheduled this Sunday. My mom was surprised because I never mentioned to her that I passed the initial screening for PLM. Actually, the reason why I didn't tell her because I also didn't know if I passed or what. It's like this: PLM will text you or not if you passed their initial screening. But as of yesterday, I haven't received anything, so I thought: "Shit, wala ng pag-asa dito sa PLM..." and I gave up (I erased PLM from my short-term memory). But lo and behold, when my mom called PLM this morning to ask if I qualified or what, they told her that I am qualified to take the MCATs this Sunday. And... the deadline to submit the application form and to pay the testing fee was only until this afternoon. They also told my mom that they texted me. WTF??!! So I immediately took a bath (of course I wore my clothes) and rushed to PLM to process every goddamn requirement. Hay. Thank God I have my mom to support me! Plus, her optimistic outlook balances my cynic and negative vibes. Hay. Thanks mama san for helping me!!

Hay. And this wasn't the first time that this happened to me. When I was in 4th year high school, I thought I had no chance of getting in UP. For you see, my UPCAT grade made the cut-off but alas, there was no more slot for the course I chose. I was already enrolled in DLSU-Dasma (Human Biology) and had filled up my class cards. But my mom adviced me to file an appeal to reconsider in UP because I told her that my friend Lara (who passed the UPCAT) adviced me to reapply because my UPCAT grade was qualified. Hay. So I rushed to UP Manila (promdi pa ako nun, first time kong pumunta, so imagine the look on my face when I first set foot in Padre Faura) and filed an appeal (turns out deadline na din nun ng submission for appeals charva). Cum March, I went back there to discover that my name was included in the reconsidered applicants. Waw. Everyone was so happy for me when I told them the good news. (Ngayon, I wasn't sure if God made the right decision... Just kidding! I love UP!)

So see the commonality between the two events in my life? Number 1. I was cynical. I doubted my abilities. 2. My mom pushed me to try try try! 3. A friend who gave hope to my mom. I don't know if the outcome will be the same this time round.

Well. I have my fingers crossed.

God works in mysterious ways.

This post is dedicated for my mom. Who always believed in me.
To my friends (April and Lara). Without you guys, walang hope for my mom.

And of course, to God. (Daym! Lord labyu so much! You always know what's best for your flock!!!)

Wee!

Oh well. Back to reality. I have to finish the "final lay-out" of our thesis poster.
Plus I need to study for MCAT. Duh? I can't really on fate and destiny alone. :)

Nasa tao ang gawa, nasa Diyos ang awa! :D

hay.

Pray ulit tayo mga friends. May bago ulit landslide. Sa Leyte naman ito. Gusto mo malaman ang detalye?? Click this --> Mudslide Hay. So sad.

Eep!

War ba ito??

Haha..!

I am so fulfilled!

Ang ganda ng kinalabasan ng poster lay-out para sa thesis namin! Woo! Papaprint lang ako sa labas! Mwah! Hugs! Abi = Very very very satisfied.

Valentine's Day...

No. I am not bitter this season of Love.

In fact, I wore something special to school today. I wore my long sleeve wrap around. Yaks! Formal-formalan ang drama! Hehe. I wore something special not because I have a date or something. I just feel like wearing something different to school. So how's Valentines day 2006 for abi? Well, as usual I don't have a boyfriend or a date. But I don't mind.. Really. As what I've said before, I don't have to act so gurly gurly or be romantic to somebody. Besides, this year I plan to celebrate every occassion with my family. My mom picked me up in UP at around 1:30 pm. I planned to buy her flowers and curly tops but alas, my mom wrecked my plan by showing up earlier than expected. Hay. Then we went to Makati Med because my mom needed to visit her ob-gyne doctor (Dra. Manahan). I saw Monsour del Rosario (no, not the dj monsourbetero) (the taekwondo jin cum artist who was previously linked to Agot Isidro) with her pregnant wife. My mom whispered this to me when I told her that the tall guy in red was Monsour: "Ah. Kaya pala parang familiar ang mukha niya. Mag-paautograph kaya ako?" (pause) "Ay wag na lang. Hindi na pala siya sikat." (another pause) "Hindi maganda yung asawa niya. Mas maganda pa si Agot." Ah. My mom. Mega shubiz. Puwede ng pumalit kay Kris sa The Buzz. Hehe. Ayun. Then we went to SSS - Makati (I don't exactly know why we went there! Sorry!). After that we went to Landmark to shop for our Valentines dinner. Hehe. So after buying all the stuff we needed we went home. Oops, I'm not finished yet. :)

So we immediately prepared everything for our Valentines shindig. Ima gonna skip the details and i'll jump to the dinner itself. Ayun. Our menu:

MENU

Spaghetti with Meat Sauce served with Garlic Batard

Fruits in season/Chocolate covered doughnuts with sprinkle

Orange Juice

So ayun lang. That's the best thing we could come up. I arranged the table and we dined ala al fresco (meaning kumain kami sa labas, well not technically dahil sa terrace lang yun). My mom was so happy and quite amazed. She didn't expect that I could come up with invitations, menu, Music CD (mushy) and the venue with such limited time! Well. Iba ang anak niya. Wondergirl. So. If anyone's interested in hiring me to organize an event or a date, just leave a message on my tagboard, I'd be willing to help (basta libre ang kain ko). I just want my family to feel that they're special. Especially my mom. I know she's very sad because my dad's not here (lagi naman e) and I do feel that she thinks that she's unloved. I hope I made her happy (I gave her chocolates pa naman). Ayun. I'm kinda pissed off because my plan of giving them a free show (movie) back-fired. I bought a pirated copy of Amityville and it didn't play on our DVD! Hay! Next time, don't buy pirated copies! Hay! Sayang ang pera. Plus I can definitely tell that my cousin is very much disappointed. Hay. :((

So much for faulty pirated DVDs. Ayun. That's how I celebrated my Valentine's day this year. Hehe. No cheesy or mushy mushy lines said. No flowers. No boyfriend. But I'm ok. In fact, I'm better than ok. I'm super fine. :) So to everyone out there in cyberspace: "Happy valentines day!! Hugs!"

Post muna ng picture (yak. vain.)



Har-har. This was after I drank to much free Baileys in Landmark. Take it off! Take it off! Ayan! Naka-sleeveless na lang!



Peek-a-boo, I see you! Ganda ko! Hahaha. Feeling. Potah. Hahahaha. I took this pic yesterday when we were cruising along UP Diliman. :D

Ahuh.

Nobody likes a kiss and tell guy.

Another muta encrusted morning

Hay.
Wasted.

Shit!

I'm overdue for a decent haircut and hot-oil.
Hay. Matapos lang itong thesis na ito.
Tangina.
To the salon! To the facial center!!!!

Orrible.
V. orrible.

Hay.
Abi = VERY STRESSED.
Abi = Daydreaming.

HAAAAAAAYYYYY!!!

Sana matapos na yung thesis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love in a scientist's POV

I got this from my e-groups. Dahil busy ako, eto na yung love post ko for the year. Haha. Enjoy!

1. PASSION or LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT is triggered by an insanely high amount of DOPAMINE which is in turn induced by an attraction to someone extraordinary to our taste.
2. Passion FADES because our brain can not sustain the intense nerve activity triggered by DOPAMINE. Nerve cells are desensitized and LONG TERM DEPRESSION occurs.
3. For those who manage to overcome dopamine, OXYTOCIN takes place. Its relaxing effects are a reason why in most couples celebrating their golden anniversaries...oxytocin levels are high.
4. The secret to maintaining oxytocin levels is having CONSTANT SEX.
5. People madly in love are deficient in SEROTONIN. Thus, taking ANTI-DEPRESSANTS which balance serotonin levels makes you FALL OUT OF LOVE.
6. We love only to fine someone IDEAL to produce ideal offspring that will survive with the highest probability.
7. LOVE is but a mere balance of these three hormones.
8. The "MAGIC" we experience in love is induced by our inner chemicals and they do a great job in making us high!
9. So it really is true that when people are in love...they have "GOOD CHEMISTRY"
10. We are puppets of our own hormones...when all the while we were too busy thinking that we have to believe in magic..
P.S.
DOPAMINE is so potent that high amounts of it will trigger our minds and bodies to do things we are not usually capable of doing...(maybe the main culprit as to why we'd do anything for the ones we truly love)

Hay.

I wish we finish our thesis already.
So I can be reunited with my bed once more.

:'(

Hay.

Para sa iyo

Oo. Para sa iyo ito. Isa kang malaking panget na tao. As in.
Galit si abi ngayon.
Punyeta.

Hay.

Before anything else, I'm asking you guys to include in your prayers the victims of the stampede yesterday at ULTRA. These people don't deseve to die. As what I've said last night to my friend Charmaine, these people were driven by poverty. This event mirrors how many poor and less fortunate people are living in our country. For a measly 2 thousand pesos, these people risked their lives. It's so sad. Ala na ba talagang hope for us Filipinos? Hay...

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On a much lighter side of life..

"The whole object of travel is not to set foot on foreign land; it is at last to set foot on one's own country as a foreign land."
- G. K. Chesterton

Traveler's Log

02-04-06, 7 am

Laman ng wallet: 600 pesos
Laman ng bag: Swimming googles, bathing suit, kikay kit, pekpek shorts, hopia
Laman ng bulsa: Cellfone (Load: 23 pesos)

Kasalukuyang sakay ng Saulog bus tungo sa Calatagan.
Kasama ang isa't kalhating antukin na thesis partner.
Walang ideya kung saan papunta.

Mga Laman ng utak:
- Sino si Mang Edgar?
- Saan namin hahanapin si Mang Edgar?
- Gutom na ko. Gutom na ko. Gutom na ko.
- Bakit ba hindi ako kumuha ng Pringles nung inalok ako?
- Ano ba tong palabas sa T.V.?

02-04-06, pasado 10:30 am

Laman ng wallet: 480 pesos
Laman ng bag: Ganoon pa rin
Laman ng bulsa: Cellfone (Load: 13 pesos), Wallet

Nasa Calatagan proper na.
Super init!
Kasama pa rin ang optimistic na thesis partner.

Mga Laman ng utak:
- Putang ina. Putang ina. Paano na?
- Sobrang gutom na ako.
- Ang laki ng Calatagan!!!!

02-04-06, pasado alas onse ng umaga

Laman ng wallet: 460 pesos
Laman ng bag: Walang pinagabago
Laman ng bulsa: Cellfone (Load: Di ko na alam), Wallet

Asa isang unknown baranggay.
Helpless sa pag-eexplain kung ano ang kelangan naming seaweed

Mga Laman ng utak:
- Happy thoughts.
- Wawa ang mga namatay sa wowowee.
- Bakit kaya hindi pa siya nagrereply?
- Asan na ba kami?
- Anong tagalog ng cell?
- Nakakaaliw si Ralph! Hahahaha.
- Bakit nakatitig tong mamang 'to sa akin?

02-04-06, alas dose ng tanghali

Laman ng wallet: 460 pesos
Laman ng bag: Same same
Laman ng bulsa: Cellfone (Load: Di ko na alam), Wallet

Nakita na si Mang Edgar ang hari ng seaweed.
Ito lang ang masasabi ko: In your face kuya knong!!!!!!

Mga Laman ng utak:
- Yay!
- Yay!
- Bakit kaya mapula ang mata ni Mang Edgar???
- Hmm. Cute ang anak ni Mang Edgar.
- Sana may makuha kaming seaweed.

**Sa pagitan ng alas-dose at ala-una, kasalukuyang asa tubig ang manunulat ng journal na ito. Sakay sila ng isang motorboat at tumigil sa isang isla (gawa sa coral reef) na may bahay (na pag-mamay-ari ni Mang Edgar). Agad silang lumusong at nag-umpisang kumuha ng mga sample. Matagumpay nilang napuno ang "cooler" ng mga maburak at dugyot na specimen ng Gracilaria salicornia.

**Kumain sila pagkatapos sa isang carinderia na pag-mamayari din ni Mang Max (ang butihing tricycle driver na tumulong sa amin). Ang ulam: 2 order ng ginayat-gayat na inihaw na baboy at 2 order ng ginataang puso ng saging na nilahukan ng sayote at alimasag.

02-04-06, pasado ala-una ng tanghali

Laman ng wallet: 150 pesos
Laman ng bag: Same same (minus the hopia)
Laman ng bulsa: Cellfone (Load: 0 balance), Wallet

Sa wakas pauwi na kami ni rap!
Ang bait ng mga tao dito sa Calatagan!
Hay..!

Mga Laman ng utak:
- Sobrang pagod. Pagod. Pagod.
- Init. init. init
- Antok na ko!
- Ang saya! Destiny!! May chance na kaming matapos yung thesis namin!

**Nag-byahe ang manunulat at ang kanyang antuking thesis partner ng halos 4 na oras. Sila'y tumungo sa laboratoryo na kanilang pinagtatrabahuhan (sa Diliman). Nilinis nila ang kanilang precious seaweed at umuwi ng may ngiti sa labi ng alas-7 ng gabi.

And this has been Abi Ruidera, your Lonely Planet correspondent.

Lao Tzu once said: "A good traveller has no fixed plan and is not intent on arriving."
So that makes me and my partner in crime Ralph, good travelers.

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Sorry walang pictures! Kasalukuyan pong nagpapahinga ang cellfone ko na may camera. Hihihi. :D Sarap ng simoy ng hangin sa probinsya! Super bait pa ng mga tao sa Calatagan! :D O paano, sa susunof na ulit! Mahal ko kayo!!! :* :* :* Mwah!

Malapit na akong sumuko

Grabe.

Andaming kelangang gawin!

:'(

So sa iyo, aking mahal na blog..

Pansamantala muna akong magpapaalam.

Hanggang sa muli.

Bibisitahin pa din kita.
Sa mga gabing hindi kami matutulog ni ralph sa MSI.
Sa mga araw na halos hindi na ako makauwi sa bahay.
Sa mga oras na tumutulo na ang laway ko habang pauwi sa bus.

Maalala kita aking minamahal na blog.

Paalam

May gulay

I'll be free from UP 2 months from now.

Hello Med school.

Pero..

Hongkong muna! :p