Post for today

I have a declaration to make.

I am the most stupid person here on earth.

Why?

Let me tell you a story. It's not a bedtime story that you folks could tell to your children someday.

I call it: "Story of Stupid Abi"

6:30 pm

I was sitting on my usual place on this certain waiting shed in U.N...
I was waiting for my bus to come.
Actually, any bus bound to BF Pilar, Moonwalk, SM Southmall, kahit tayuan, I would board it.
I replaced the batteries of my mp3 player and held the player in my left hand.

There I was.
Bored.
And very tired. (I came from my 6-hr lab class)

I looked around. (As usual, I observed the people who were waiting just like me)
There was an old man in another panel of the waiting shed.
There were students passing me by. (To ride the LRT maybe)
There were construction workers who were taking their yosi break.

And there I was.

Still bored.
Tired.
And starting to feel restless.

Vroom. Vroom.
The buses went by.

I looked around again.
On my peripheral vision, I saw my bus.
My freaking bus made a U-turn in the slot in front of NBI.

I don't know what got into me.
Maybe out of boredom.
Or maybe out of despair to go home.

I stood up and ran.
Not minding the people on the streets.
I just ran.
And ran.
And ran...

I wanted to board the bus that BAD.
I just kept saying to myself: "I can do this..."
Just like the dog I saw on cartoons this morning.

Adrenaline rushed into my body as I tread the streets of Taft Ave.
I expected to catch it on Padre Faura.
But God has His own way of telling me to stop.

The traffic light went green.

I was so close.
So close...

But I didn't give up that easy.
I continued to run.
Then walk.
And pant.

Pant... Pant... Sweat...

There it was again.
It stopped in front of PGH.

There's my chance...

I decided to run again.
My legs were like worn-out tires. Ready to explode and retire.
I kept running.

Again. God has His own way to stop me.

The traffic light went green again.
I said to myself: "Stupid traffic light!"

But I won't give up.
I was very close.

So I ran as fast as I could....

And you know what happened?

I caught the bus.

FINALLY.

I was breathing hard.

I saw the perfect seat and relaxed.

Minutes later....

I realized how stupid I am.

Why?

I could've just taken a freaking jeep to catch it (From UN to Pedro Gil).
My efforts were equivalent to a 6 pesos-jeepney ride.

Stupidity at its finest.

.FIN.

If you're wondrin' what happened to my mp3 player (I didn't put it in my bag)
I was still holdin' onto it when I boarded the bus.

No mp3 player was hurt in the making of this story.

Amen.


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This is a true-to-life story.
And yes, I am that stupid.

Nyt y'all.

Di sanay

This is supposed to be my post for yestaaarday.

So there I was, minding my own business. Watching t.v. and being a couch tomato when the phone rang. It was for my mom.

Telephone Conversation:

Me: "Hello."
Some girl: "A, pwede po ba kay tita emma?"
Me: "Huh? Wait lang ah. Sino to?"
Some girl: "Classmate po niya."

Me: "Maaaa! Fone po!!!"
Mami: "Sino daw?"
Me: "Classmate mo daw po!"

For some freaking reason, ngayon ko lang to na-realize: "Ang weird!" Why? Baligtad eh. Dapat Yung "me" eh si mami at yung "mami" eh ako dapat. Hay.. Di pa talaga ako sanay ng lahat kami nag-aaral. Oh well. I'll get used to it then. Maybe next month or so. Haha.

I didn't watch CSI last night. Why? I woke up 11:50 pm last night. I set my alarm clock to 9 pm, and apparently... I failed in waking up na naman. Good thing may sunday pa. Haha. Saka ko na lang siya papanoorin. Hehe. Maganda nga raw eh. Darn it. :(

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The reason why I didn't published this yestarday because my mom called me for dinner. Tas un. Nakalimutan ko ng mag-online.

:)

Juz so you know

Juz so you know that i've let go of my feelings for you.
I'll be happy without you.
I'll handle my problems without telling you.
I'll get on with my life even without you....

I'm so over you.

No more drama.

No more lies.

.....


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Malapit ng 1.5k ang hits ko. If I have time, may makikita kayong story. Pero kung na-consume na ako ng thesis, ng micro lab, ng everything, sorry po, baka pag di na ako busy.
Hehe. :)

Malapit na ang biogyugan!
Malapit na din ang graduation picture-taking!

Excited na ako!

:) :) :)

Mag-aaral pa ako ng rad bio.

:( :( :(

Oh well. What's new???

Hahahahaha

annihilation

I'm gonna annihilate all the goddamn dogs in this freaking neighborhood. I swear. Kaya kayong mga tarantadong aso kayo na nangtrip sa mga halaman namin, potah kumain na kayo ng masarap mamaya dahil bukas, azucena kayong lahat.

Hay

I watched My Sassy Girl again. Hay... Ganda-ganda talaga, esp nung sumigaw yung girl sa mountain. Hay. Haay... Wish my love story could be as colorful as their's. :))

I heard Hollywood's going to make a remake of My Sassy Girl. Hay. Ok pa din yung setting dun sa original. Plus mas ok yung tandem ng original na actors. Hay. Next year ata ipapalabas.

Oh well...

:)

Stupid

I'm stupid to search for rechargable AAA batteries at the internet. Haha. I'm confirming if it there's such a thing. Ang stupid talaga. Haha. Ang problema ko e2: San nakakabili? :)

Hay

Potah. Panalangin ko sa Diyos: "Lord, please, bukas, huwag niyo masyadong lakasan ang ulan." Bakit? Pupunta ako sa MSI. Potang thesis yan o. Potang ulan. Potah talaga. Pag naayos ko yung sa thesis ko talagang magcecelebrate ako bukas. Potah. Basta wag lang akong ulanin. Pordiyos, porsanto de la vida ika nga ng nanay ko.

Senti? Weather-weather lang 'yan!

I was lying on my bed a while ago. I was kinda having my sentimental moments. I just can't help it, the weather's very fine and I was listening to Enya's Only Time. While the music was playing I remembered the move "Sweet November." (FYI: Only Time was part of the movie's soundtrack). And in an instant, I remembered myself crying inside April's car. I think it happened last year? We were on our way home na (April's gonna drop me at Sta. Cruz), I was really depressed that time so I had no control of my emotions. It was about my love-life.

Wait.

Pause.

Bakit ko naalala yung pag-iyak ko noong narinig ko yung Only Time?

To those who watched Sweet November, siguro alam niyong hindi "happy" ending 'yung film. The girl didn't grab the opportunity. Opportunity of having somebody who would take care of her (di ba may sakit s'ya) and love her. Sabihin na nating natakot siya. Natakot siyang masaktan si Keannu Reeves dahil mamatay din siya. Na ayaw niyang kaawaan siya.

In a way, I could relate to the girl. Isa akong malaking DUWAG. First time kong aaminin. Gusto ko pag pumasok sa isang relationship, walang sablay. Lahat perfect. Kaya for the past relationships that I had (as if madami eh no?), hindi buo 'yung nabibigay ko. Laging may pag-aalinlangan. Laging may dahilan. Lagi akong may nililihim.

Tas ako din ang iiyak-iyak kapag nagsawa na sa kakahintay sa akin 'yung tao. Ang hirap dahil ako 'yung may mali. Ang hirap dahil hindi ko magawang magbago. Ang hirap kasi kahit gustong-gusto ko ng magmahal, pinipigilan ko dahil natatakot akong masaktan. It doesn't make sense di ba? Ayaw kong masaktan pero sa ginagawa ko, sa bandang huli, ako din 'yung nasasaktan.

Ang hirap. Pero kahit paunti-unti natututo at sinusubukan kong magbago.

Pero

Sana...

Sana lang...

Hindi pa huli ang lahat.

Mahintay mo pa sana ako.

Ha! Let there be a post!

Despite telling myself this morning that I'm not going home unless I finished reading my bio 150 module, I still went home early today. Let's say I got tired of walking from ALVA to school and it's much much easier to just ride the bus home. Ayun patay na. It's just a couple of meters away from Taft Ave! Bakit ba kasi ang Taft Ave. ay conveniently located in between ALVA and UPM? Haha. Sisihin daw ba ang Highway? Haha. Haha. Haha. My brother's watching MTV and Lindsay Lohan's MTV is on. Damn. I don't like Lindsay Lohan na. She looks like Paris Hilton. I like Lindsay better when she was a red-head. Hay.

Wait. Banzai na. Haha. Nood muna ako. Sooo many disturbanceeeee! Buwiset.

Testing

Just testing if the date and time is correct. :) Heehee..

Kantahan Blues

Hmm. It's raining hard outside. There's only one thing in my mind that I need to do. Sleep. Yup. With the emphasis on "need" yun a. Who wants to join me? Haha. B.I. Amp. :)

Akap
Imago

Nagtatanong
Bakit mahirap sumabay sa agos
Ng iyong mundo Nagtataka
Simple lang naman sana ang buhay
Kung ika'y matino

[chorus]
Sabihin sakin lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko Ibaling sakin ang problema mo
Kakayanin ko

Pikit mata
Kong iaalay ang buwan at araw
Pati pa sapatos kong suot
Nagtataka
Simple lang naman sana ang buhay
Kung ika'y matino

[chorus]
Sabihin sakin lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko Ibaling sakin ang problema mo
Kakayanin ko

[bridge]
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa pait
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa pait
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit

[chorus]
Sabihin sakin lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko Ibaling sakin ang problema mo
Kakayanin kox

Yifee...

I just want to say: Thanks Sir Hallare for responding to my e-mail. :)) I thought he'll be pissed when I told him that I'm going to change topic for my undergraduate seminar. I wasn't happy with the first one and the literature resources were very limited. Anyway, He approved this one: "Why Asians age slower than Americans." He also gave me an extension or grace period for me to submit my Topic Outline. He said I could submit it this Friday. Yay! Thank God for having a very considerate prof. My butt is saved today!! Hehehe..

Heniweys, I'm going to school later at 12 pm so I'm going to sleep muna ulit. :))

Yifee!

I was listening to Stay by Lisa Loeb on my new mp3 player, when I thought of writing a new post for my blog. So what's new with Abi? I finally bought the mp3 player that I've been dying to buy since last 2 weeks ago. I finally raised 'nuf money for the said gadget. Nope, I didn't buy Match nor Astone because I found a cheaper one in Makro. It cost me 1800 bucks but I'm really happy with it. It's color black and it has 5 different backlights to choose from. It also has this capability to be upgraded and be used as a Mass Storage Device (Flash drive). Besides playing mp3 songs, it can also record voice plus it can store telephone numbers as well! I'm really happy because it's really worth my hard-earned money. If ever something bad happens to it (I hope not), I can return it to the store anytime since they gave me a 1 year warranty for it. Yay!

Hmm, my friend Stephanie called me up this afternoon, asking me if have any ideas for her assignment. She's asking me for an appliance or furniture or any item that can be improved. It's for her Ergonomics class and she's really having a hard time thinking about a very great idea. If you have any ideas or suggections, please leave a message either on my tagboard or in my comments box! Thanks! :)

I really want to say thanks to that someone who texted me this pm. He told me that the song "Akap" by Imago reminded him of me. It made me feel extra special knowing that that somebody is thinking of me after-all. Sigh... :)

Oh my Gulay, It's 9:30 pm already and I'm missing CSI! Oh sorry! I need to end this entry! Bye! Till next time!

Ciao bamibino, bambini!

Hugs to everyone!

Hay..

I'm sooo tired. But I'm glad that some things are working out for me. Lola is out of danger now and she was discharged from the hospital last thursday. Thank God for that.

A lot of things happened to me last week. But as what I've said... I'm soo tired. :p Next time na lang. :)

To my everdearest lola

Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan na noong bata pa ako nakagalitan ako ni lola. Asa bahay kasi ako ng kapitbahay namin sa probinsya (may napakalaking butas sa gitna ng bahay nila, at hindi ko alam kung bakit). Kasama ko noon si Ellen (may asawa at anak na ngayon), at si Amy (ang kapatid ni Ellen), at dahil bata pa kami noon, hindi uso ang personal hygiene kaya super dungis namin. Nagtakas kami ng ice candy mula sa bahay at dahil isa lang ang nadugas namin, share-share kaming tatlo. Malaking katangahan ko lang noong nakita ko si lola sa may silangan (tawag namin sa likod ng bahay namin), sumigaw ako ng: "Hi Inay!" with matching supsop sa ice candy. Nakita kami ni lola sa kalagitnaan ng aming ice candy session at sinigawan ako ng: "Bumaba ka d'yan p*ta ka!" Anak ng tukneneng. Nakalimutan kong si lola nga pala ang reyna ng kalinisan at siya na ang pinaka-vain na matandang nakilala ko. Sobrang galit sa akin ni lola nun! Buong summer ata akong hindi pinalabas ng bahay bilang parusa.

Strict si lola sa itsura at pananamit. Gusto niya laging maayos ang buhok, naka-pulbos, mabango, at dapat maayos ang damit. Ayaw niya ng marumi, gusgusin at magulong buhok. Ke me okasyon o wala, lagi siyang maayos. Kapag gabi, hindi mawawala ang ritwal niya ng paglalagay ng chinsansu ('yung pearl cream na pampaputi) sa mukha. Kapag aalis at magsisimba, dapat naka-lipstick, powder, naka-suave ang buhok, at dapat may pabango. Nagpapasama pa talaga siya kay tita kina Carmen ('yung beautician na kapit-bahay nina Stephanie sa may Cadena de Amor) para lang mag-pa manicure at pedicure with matching kulot at gupit. Ang matindi pa dyan, kung hindi lang natuklasan kamakailan na allergic pala siya sa Bigen (yung pangkulay sa buhok) eh natalo pa niya ako sa dami ng beses ng pagpapakulay ng buhok.

Pero ibang-iba siya kaninang madaling-araw noong nakita ko siya sa kama. Maputlang-maputla siya at hinang-hina. Kumupas na ang dating sigla ni lola. Hindi ko napigilang umiyak noong iba na 'yong paghinga niya. Sobrang taas ng lagnat niya kaninang madaling-araw kaya lahat kami nataranta. Ang akala ni mami, iyon na ang katapusan ni Inay. Di ko matanggap yun kaya umiyak talaga ako. Dapat maabutan pa ni lola yung pag-graduate ko ngayong March at dapat nandoon din siya sa graduation ko sa med. Di pa dapat kaninang mdaling-araw, dapat matagal pa siya mabubuhay.

Tinugon ng Diyos 'yung iyak ko kaya medyo ok na si lola ngayon. Asa perps (Perpetual) siya naka-confine ngayon. Wala na naman siyang lagnat pero under observation pa din daw siya. Hay. Buhay nga naman...

Artsy fartsy weekend

I'll be treating myself to an italian movie this tuesday. My friend Moises (hope I spelled his name right) asked if I'm free this tuesday (no not for a date stupid). He works at CCP as an usher and he told me that CCP will be screening an italian film this tuesday at 4 pm for free. I searched google if it's really true (I don't trust people that easy no? Hehe) and if so, where in CCP will it be held.

So I found out minutes ago that it's true. They'll be showing "I cento passi" or "One hundred Steps" at the CCP Dream Theater. So I invited my mom and my aunt to join me this tuesday. My aunt was hesitant at first because she thought it was another porn flick because she saw me watching "Amelie" and "A Very Long Engagement" (both Italian films by Jean-Pierre Jeunet), which both had *ahem*... very revealing scenes. Nonetheless, I convinced them to join me since the admission is free. Hehe. I'll be posting the details next week if my plan works.

While searching for the schedule of the screening in the net, I found out that there is this certain place in Vito Cruz called "Instituto Cervantes" is showing Spanish films (with English subtitles, of course) every Saturday at 5 pm for free! Wow. If I have a boyfriend (or a fling, or a movie buddy), I'll be there every Saturday.

I'm a sucker for art films and foreign films with english subtitles. I love seeing other countries and I'm really bored with the kind of films shown in movie houses. They show either porn films, sci-fi films (sorry, I'm not a fanatic of this genre), or Asian horror films. The themes are very cliche already and some are just a waste of my hard-earned allowance.

But there is this one film I really want to see. I guess you've seen it advertised in local channels, it's entitled "Pinoy Blonde," a digital film directed by Peque Gallaga starring Epi and Boy2 Quizon. They claim that this movie is not like any other pinoy films. Hmm... It got me curious so if I have extra money by next week, I'll watch it. I'll also tell the details after I watched it.

That's all for now. Ciao!

Events

I am so bored.

Bored.

Bored.

I might go out later. Have coffee and study for microbio exam. Wait. Today is the opening of UAAP, right? Oh well. I'm not going anyway (financial reasons of course).

Bored.

Bored.

I have many things to do but instead of doing 'em, here I am. Moping, doing nothing and being extremely bored. Something is definitely wrong with me. First it was the chinito guys, now being bored eventhough I have loads of "fun" (not) things to do. I am weird. Very weird.

Hay.

Stupidity at its best

Two times in a row abi. Are you that blind or just plain ignorant? Oh no, I'm not talking about love here. I saw two extremely cute chinito guys pass by our house and surprisingly, I didn't turn my back to see where they were going. What's going on with mois? Am I that pre-occuppied to stop and enjoy God's beautiful creations? What's wrong with meeeeeee?

Lyrics

Here's Mariah for y'all.. You know who you are, this song is for yah. :)

We Belong Together
Mariah Carey...

(Ooh, ooh, sweet love, yeah)

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

[chorus]

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

Blog

Random thoughts 101:

1. I'm excited to graduate, but not too excited in going to med studies yet.
2. I have no money, so I'd probably sell my STS cd for 25 bucks a piece.
3. I really want to buy that freakin' mp3 player but my money is isn't enough yet.
4. I have so many things to do, so why am I here?
5. I need to sleep early, I need to look good on my I.D. (harhar, my ID is super delapitated)
6. I.D. + New charger for my fone + Sem dues = expenses

Nyt nyt y'all. :)

Badtrip

Hay. I need to do a gazillion things before I can watch t.v. or sleep! Badtrip. Badtrip. I hate senior year.

2 can play this game

Two can play this game bubba.

No more miss nice girl for you.