Hay...
Bit by bit I'm starting to recover from last week's mumbo-jumbo. I stopped blaming myself and I'm finally beginning to 'ccept na we're cut out as friends na lang.
So much for my once again, non-existent love life, wheell. Balik school na naman ako. Puta talaga dahil monday-thursday-wednesday at tuesday lang ang pasok ko.
So? Ang masaklap eh 4-5:30 lang ung monday - thursday ko! Isipin mo ang pagod sa utak kung ano yung gagawin ko the whole day! Pag natapos pa yung thesis work
sa Diliman, mas lalo na! Hay.
Ayun.
So far, ala naman C-O-O-L na nangyayari sa akin today. Boring. Tamad. Di siguro ako papasok mamya. Puta. Sayang pamasahe, e di pa naman official na start yung class.
Tas bibili pa ako ng libro. Echart ata yung kelangan for Animal physio. Ughh..... Physio. Ugh.
Kainis, ayokong ibayad sa bill ko yung pera na bigay ng Dad ko. Pakshet na Sun kasi yan eh. Gusto ko pa namang manood ng sine at bumili ng contact lens. Pakshet talaga yang Sun.
Pakshet. Pakshet. Buti pa ang Globe may unlimited.
Foerever na nga akong Globe unlimitied. Forever na nagtetext ng txtnonstop25 sa 2870. Hahaha. Sulit eh. Lahat ng ka-text ko eh puro Globe. Hay. kaya lagi akong puyat eh.
Sanay na naman ako eh. Wahahaha.
Sana umuwi na yung parents ko. Gusto kong manood ng sine. Gusto kong panoorin yung Chicken Little sa ATC. Wahaha. Maghanap ka na kasi ng boyfriend, abi. Araw-araw may susundo
sa yo, may mag-I iloveyou, may mag-aalala. Hay! Di muna siguro ngayon. Taena. Kagagaling ko nga lang sa iyakan blues eh. Saka na pag ready na ulit ang puso ko.
Ayun.
Tas, ok na pala kme ni ahem-ahem. We're friends na. As in friends na lang talaga, no strings attached, no feelings involved and no bitterness sa aking part. Parang Lucas-Haley ng One Tree
Hill. Kaso nga lang ndi ako kinasal gaya ni Haley. Duh? Ala naman akong "Nathan" na boyfriend e. Haha. :)
Well at least that's ovah... :)
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Yup
After posting that post, I'm feeling a wee bit better.
It's like having a strong medicine that you really don't like but you need to take it dahil it'll make you feel better.
Plus, I have a fool-proof plan which will make me definitely better.
Be very very busy this last semester.
I'm gonna eat, drink, breathe stress this sem.
Papaka-toxic sa thesis.
Lamay sa exams.
Gimiks on weekends.
You made me vulnerable to pain.
Andami ko ng pinagdaanan.
Mas masakit pa sa pinagdaanan mo.
Mas masakit pa sa pinagdaanan niya.
I'm not gonna surrender on this fight.
I'm going to stay.
Yes. More than forever.
It's going to kill me, I know.
But only to prove to you that i'm stronger than you thought.
I'm rebuilding my shield.
I'm gonna be a new person.
I'll be strong.
Kaya ko to.
Kakayanin ko to.
Sabi ko nga noon:
"Obsession ba ito o true love? Anak ng tokwang nilagay sa pasibol na munggo! Maghihintay na lang ako... Di naman ako selfish eh. Kahit malaman kong may bagong babae sa buhay mo ok lang. Sapat na ang makakilala ako ng tulad mo... Ang maging kaibigan ka at maramdaman ko ang kiligin at mahulog sa patibong ng pag-ibig."
It's like having a strong medicine that you really don't like but you need to take it dahil it'll make you feel better.
Plus, I have a fool-proof plan which will make me definitely better.
Be very very busy this last semester.
I'm gonna eat, drink, breathe stress this sem.
Papaka-toxic sa thesis.
Lamay sa exams.
Gimiks on weekends.
You made me vulnerable to pain.
Andami ko ng pinagdaanan.
Mas masakit pa sa pinagdaanan mo.
Mas masakit pa sa pinagdaanan niya.
I'm not gonna surrender on this fight.
I'm going to stay.
Yes. More than forever.
It's going to kill me, I know.
But only to prove to you that i'm stronger than you thought.
I'm rebuilding my shield.
I'm gonna be a new person.
I'll be strong.
Kaya ko to.
Kakayanin ko to.
Sabi ko nga noon:
"Obsession ba ito o true love? Anak ng tokwang nilagay sa pasibol na munggo! Maghihintay na lang ako... Di naman ako selfish eh. Kahit malaman kong may bagong babae sa buhay mo ok lang. Sapat na ang makakilala ako ng tulad mo... Ang maging kaibigan ka at maramdaman ko ang kiligin at mahulog sa patibong ng pag-ibig."
Sunday, November 06, 2005
My thoughts
It's exactly four months since you and I parted ways. I should be happy because I triumphed in making you think that I'm a nobody, that you'd be better off with someone better. But why..? Bakit hindi pa din ako masaya? Despite the fact that I led you in finding the right girl, why am I still hurting this bad?
I pushed you as far away as possible. I always made things up so you would be angry at me. Pero alam mo kung ano yung totoo ha?
I didn't love somebody else when we were still together. There was no other guy but you. You were my life, my all, my everything.
I'd sit on the bus and think about you all the time. Reminiscing how you looked, how you smiled and how you laughed. I loved every part of you.
I loved how you look, dahil para sa akin ikaw yung pinakagwapo, walang dapat baguhin, walang dapat pagandahin. You were perfect thw way you are.
And I? I went to school simple. I didn't like dressing up nor being kikay. I didn't like make-up and I was no makati girl. For short, di ako stand-out beauty. I was a normal and ordinary girl who enjoyed simple pleasures in life.
I didn't like going to bars and partying. I enjoyed the solace of my bedroom, devouring every book, magazine, pamphlet there was in my house. I liked looking on the beauty of ordinary life. I would sit for hours in a bus stop, thinking. I didn't make friends with high-end people, instead, old people in buses who talked about life were my companion. Movies were my past time, and pouring my guts (singing in videoke) out in G-box (Robinson's) were the only things I considered as my "social life."
We're different in every way possible. I liked having a simple life. There's beauty in simplicity yun yung asa isip ko. While you enjoyed going out, club hopping, I enjoyed walks in the park and foreign films with english subtitles.
That's why I pushed you away. Nobody likes a girl with a hippie lifestyle. Hindi ka magiging masaya sa akin.
But I was goddamn wrong.
I never thought somebody would take notice of my existence. I was blinded by my insecurities.
And I was never surprised when you found her. She's everything that I'm not! She's rich, fabolous, and have a glamorous lifestyle. She loves going out, shopping, lahat! Unlike me, she expresses her love for you.
So. Despite everything, bakit nasasaktan pa din ako? Due to regrets maybe.
That if I had just believed that you loved me for who I am, sana...
We'd still be sharing this one sunny day together doing nothing but saying sweet nothings to each other. Watching MTV and laugh at jologs and corny programs. I'd be having dinner at your house, and we'll be spending time with your family and mine on weekends. We're gonna hear mass together. Hold hands. Kiss. Hindi kailangan gumastos. Just be with each other.
Endless thoughts. I'd be spending my whole life wondering. It's enough punishment for me to be in a whirlwind of confusing emotions and forever playback of what if, what if, what if....
I love you so much.
And I may not love somebody for a while.
I am so numb.
Devoid of feelings.
=======================
You asked me: "Wat if I die?"
You know what I'll feel?
One Sweet Day.......
I pushed you as far away as possible. I always made things up so you would be angry at me. Pero alam mo kung ano yung totoo ha?
I didn't love somebody else when we were still together. There was no other guy but you. You were my life, my all, my everything.
I'd sit on the bus and think about you all the time. Reminiscing how you looked, how you smiled and how you laughed. I loved every part of you.
I loved how you look, dahil para sa akin ikaw yung pinakagwapo, walang dapat baguhin, walang dapat pagandahin. You were perfect thw way you are.
And I? I went to school simple. I didn't like dressing up nor being kikay. I didn't like make-up and I was no makati girl. For short, di ako stand-out beauty. I was a normal and ordinary girl who enjoyed simple pleasures in life.
I didn't like going to bars and partying. I enjoyed the solace of my bedroom, devouring every book, magazine, pamphlet there was in my house. I liked looking on the beauty of ordinary life. I would sit for hours in a bus stop, thinking. I didn't make friends with high-end people, instead, old people in buses who talked about life were my companion. Movies were my past time, and pouring my guts (singing in videoke) out in G-box (Robinson's) were the only things I considered as my "social life."
We're different in every way possible. I liked having a simple life. There's beauty in simplicity yun yung asa isip ko. While you enjoyed going out, club hopping, I enjoyed walks in the park and foreign films with english subtitles.
That's why I pushed you away. Nobody likes a girl with a hippie lifestyle. Hindi ka magiging masaya sa akin.
But I was goddamn wrong.
I never thought somebody would take notice of my existence. I was blinded by my insecurities.
And I was never surprised when you found her. She's everything that I'm not! She's rich, fabolous, and have a glamorous lifestyle. She loves going out, shopping, lahat! Unlike me, she expresses her love for you.
So. Despite everything, bakit nasasaktan pa din ako? Due to regrets maybe.
That if I had just believed that you loved me for who I am, sana...
We'd still be sharing this one sunny day together doing nothing but saying sweet nothings to each other. Watching MTV and laugh at jologs and corny programs. I'd be having dinner at your house, and we'll be spending time with your family and mine on weekends. We're gonna hear mass together. Hold hands. Kiss. Hindi kailangan gumastos. Just be with each other.
Endless thoughts. I'd be spending my whole life wondering. It's enough punishment for me to be in a whirlwind of confusing emotions and forever playback of what if, what if, what if....
I love you so much.
And I may not love somebody for a while.
I am so numb.
Devoid of feelings.
=======================
You asked me: "Wat if I die?"
You know what I'll feel?
One Sweet Day.......
Friday, November 04, 2005
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Random thoughts...
I hate being emotionally attached with somebody tas hindi man lang ma-reciprocate 'yung feeling. Kainis!!!!!!!!!!!!! Erg.
Shake it off abi.
Bakit naman kasi siya pa ang minahal mo?
Bakitttttttt?!!!!!!
Tanga tanga mo talaga.
Madami naman ibang guys dyan.
Bakit yun pang desperado? Yung in-denial na mahal pa din niya yung gf niya?
Bakit siyaaaa paaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Potah.
Uh-oh.
This means one thing: I am longing for a serious commitment with him!
Are you losing your touch abi?
This can't be true!
Ay caramba!!!!
Lord, deliver me from evil.
3 days bago bumalik yung girl from Hongkong.
Doon mo malalaman kung ano ka ba talaga sa kanya.
Friend or someone else?
Pottttttaaaaaaa.
Pano kung friend ka lang?
Di ko alam!!!!!
Ayoko ng isipin.
Ang mahalaga...
May 3 days pa kaming dalawa.
Hay.
Kung friend nga lang ako... Siguradong balik lahat sa dati.
Di na naman ako maalala.
Maghanap ka na kasi ng iba eh.
Ayoko!!!!!!
Tang 'nang love.
Pinaglalaruan ako.
Malay mo naman abi.
May November 23 pa....
Baka sakaling maagaw mo pa abi!
Ang sama-sama kooooooooo
Eh siya naman yung excited eh.
Ibig sabihin gusto niya din ako!
Hay.
Bahala na si Lord.
Alam naman niya kung ano yung tama eh.
DI ba??
-Fin-
(Schizo mode si abi.)
Shake it off abi.
Bakit naman kasi siya pa ang minahal mo?
Bakitttttttt?!!!!!!
Tanga tanga mo talaga.
Madami naman ibang guys dyan.
Bakit yun pang desperado? Yung in-denial na mahal pa din niya yung gf niya?
Bakit siyaaaa paaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Potah.
Uh-oh.
This means one thing: I am longing for a serious commitment with him!
Are you losing your touch abi?
This can't be true!
Ay caramba!!!!
Lord, deliver me from evil.
3 days bago bumalik yung girl from Hongkong.
Doon mo malalaman kung ano ka ba talaga sa kanya.
Friend or someone else?
Pottttttaaaaaaa.
Pano kung friend ka lang?
Di ko alam!!!!!
Ayoko ng isipin.
Ang mahalaga...
May 3 days pa kaming dalawa.
Hay.
Kung friend nga lang ako... Siguradong balik lahat sa dati.
Di na naman ako maalala.
Maghanap ka na kasi ng iba eh.
Ayoko!!!!!!
Tang 'nang love.
Pinaglalaruan ako.
Malay mo naman abi.
May November 23 pa....
Baka sakaling maagaw mo pa abi!
Ang sama-sama kooooooooo
Eh siya naman yung excited eh.
Ibig sabihin gusto niya din ako!
Hay.
Bahala na si Lord.
Alam naman niya kung ano yung tama eh.
DI ba??
-Fin-
(Schizo mode si abi.)
Monday, October 31, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Kikay?
SInce I was having so much problems right now, I decided to unwind by pampering myself. My hair and nails were brought back to life and i'm very pleased with how they looked now. Hay. Next week enrollment na namin! Hay so much for the sembreak. :(
Morning
I woke up and I thought it was only 6 am. Aba lo and behold, pagtingin ko sa oras ng aking celfone, jaraaaaan! 7:20 am na! It's a rainy day for us here in the Metro folks, better bring your umbrellas to work and if you're a student na currently on a sembreak (like me), just sit back and relax. :)
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
20 Things About ME
I've done a list before pero dahil sa wala akong ginagawa today, gumawa ulit ako ng bago:
1. My real and complete name is: Abigail Dalawangbayan Ruidera. If you're reading this: Love that name or i'll kick your butt.
2. Birthday: January 8, 1986, so technically i'm still 19 years old.
3. I live in a two-storey (or maybe 3 if you consider the attic as another floor) house in a suburbian place here in Las Pinas. My room is colored pink and I love sleeping in my yellow bed (I really don't believe in color coordination).
4. I bruise (pasa) everytime my blood is taken. I have a nasty black and blue one on my arm.
5. I studied at Divine Light Academy for 12 years (from preschool to high school). Don't ask me why I stayed there, basta I did.
6. I resigned as Class President when I was in 1st year high school. I even submitted a formal resignation letter to our class adviser.
7. I appeared on Channel [V] when I was in 2nd year high school. I requested for this song: Agent Orange by Slapshock My name was misspelled (It should by A-B-I not A-b-b-y). Dang!
8. I appeared on Channel 2 - Sunday TV Mass during my elementary years. I saw Aiza Seguerra and Kathleen Go-Kieng. I was with our school's choir that time kaya ako nakasama. I wore my school uniform and hideous bloody red lipstick. I looked like a trying hard whore. Dang!
9. I was interviewed in Angelo Palmones' radio program: "Bago Yan Ah!" together with my two schoolmates, Cyreene and Isobelle. We were there because of our "very innovative" investigatory project: Fly trap made from Crushed Pineapple and Gumamela Extract. Innovative nga!
10. I had 4 boyfriend(ssss) in the past. One was from UP Los Banos (when I was in 2nd year high school), one was from Adamson (3rd year high), one from TIP (3rd year college) and one (very, very recent) from UA&P (pretty boy!).
11. I have one bestfriend, we're super close hanggang ngayon. Her name is Stephanie Monique Del Rosario. She lives in Cadena de Amor St, just four blocks (apat na kanto) away from my house. She's currently studying at Mapua and is very happy with her boyfriend (oops, fiance pala) Jonas. Bes!
12. I enrolled in an acting workshop in CCP way way before. I made some friends there (Patricia, Alex, Georgina...). Meron na ata akong clasmmate na naging artista. Si Derna Olivia Patricio or Den-Den who appeared in Filipinas as the wife of Victor Neri. My mentor, Ms. Sherry Lara, appeared in movies: Crying Ladies (Eric Quizon's mom) and in Azucena.
13. I'm currently a senior BS Biology student in the University of the Philippines (Manila). Just a few more units and I'll be graduating next year (hopefully!).
14. I plan to take up medicine after. So I have more or less 6 years of schooling left.
15. I want to be either: a forensic scientist like Gil Grissom in CSI or... a neurologist (kinda like my grandfather - my grandmother's brother, Dr. Leovigildo Isabela, resident neurosurgeon in UST Hospital)
16. I dream of becoming filthy rich. After I reach that "dream," I'll become a barrio doctor and give up all the luxuries I have. :p
17. I love to cook. I love to try new stuffs sa kitchen, and wellll.. my family loves my cooking, so I must be good!
18. I'm a home-buddy. I don't like going out much.
19. I smoked before (pero hindi po ako chain-smoker), siguro one stick pag may problema (huwaaaat?). Pero ndi na ngayon. Good girl na po ako.
20. I don't drink cuz I'm allergic to any alcoholic beverage (I'll die if I eat fruit cake).
So there.
1. My real and complete name is: Abigail Dalawangbayan Ruidera. If you're reading this: Love that name or i'll kick your butt.
2. Birthday: January 8, 1986, so technically i'm still 19 years old.
3. I live in a two-storey (or maybe 3 if you consider the attic as another floor) house in a suburbian place here in Las Pinas. My room is colored pink and I love sleeping in my yellow bed (I really don't believe in color coordination).
4. I bruise (pasa) everytime my blood is taken. I have a nasty black and blue one on my arm.
5. I studied at Divine Light Academy for 12 years (from preschool to high school). Don't ask me why I stayed there, basta I did.
6. I resigned as Class President when I was in 1st year high school. I even submitted a formal resignation letter to our class adviser.
7. I appeared on Channel [V] when I was in 2nd year high school. I requested for this song: Agent Orange by Slapshock My name was misspelled (It should by A-B-I not A-b-b-y). Dang!
8. I appeared on Channel 2 - Sunday TV Mass during my elementary years. I saw Aiza Seguerra and Kathleen Go-Kieng. I was with our school's choir that time kaya ako nakasama. I wore my school uniform and hideous bloody red lipstick. I looked like a trying hard whore. Dang!
9. I was interviewed in Angelo Palmones' radio program: "Bago Yan Ah!" together with my two schoolmates, Cyreene and Isobelle. We were there because of our "very innovative" investigatory project: Fly trap made from Crushed Pineapple and Gumamela Extract. Innovative nga!
10. I had 4 boyfriend(ssss) in the past. One was from UP Los Banos (when I was in 2nd year high school), one was from Adamson (3rd year high), one from TIP (3rd year college) and one (very, very recent) from UA&P (pretty boy!).
11. I have one bestfriend, we're super close hanggang ngayon. Her name is Stephanie Monique Del Rosario. She lives in Cadena de Amor St, just four blocks (apat na kanto) away from my house. She's currently studying at Mapua and is very happy with her boyfriend (oops, fiance pala) Jonas. Bes!
12. I enrolled in an acting workshop in CCP way way before. I made some friends there (Patricia, Alex, Georgina...). Meron na ata akong clasmmate na naging artista. Si Derna Olivia Patricio or Den-Den who appeared in Filipinas as the wife of Victor Neri. My mentor, Ms. Sherry Lara, appeared in movies: Crying Ladies (Eric Quizon's mom) and in Azucena.
13. I'm currently a senior BS Biology student in the University of the Philippines (Manila). Just a few more units and I'll be graduating next year (hopefully!).
14. I plan to take up medicine after. So I have more or less 6 years of schooling left.
15. I want to be either: a forensic scientist like Gil Grissom in CSI or... a neurologist (kinda like my grandfather - my grandmother's brother, Dr. Leovigildo Isabela, resident neurosurgeon in UST Hospital)
16. I dream of becoming filthy rich. After I reach that "dream," I'll become a barrio doctor and give up all the luxuries I have. :p
17. I love to cook. I love to try new stuffs sa kitchen, and wellll.. my family loves my cooking, so I must be good!
18. I'm a home-buddy. I don't like going out much.
19. I smoked before (pero hindi po ako chain-smoker), siguro one stick pag may problema (huwaaaat?). Pero ndi na ngayon. Good girl na po ako.
20. I don't drink cuz I'm allergic to any alcoholic beverage (I'll die if I eat fruit cake).
So there.
Monday, October 24, 2005
A Love Story
There was once a girl who loved a guy so much. Painful break-ups, funny encounters, name every event and the girl was there for him. The guy appreciated the girl's effort and tried to reciprocate the girl's feelings. But there was a huge problem, even if they have special relationship with each other, they can't be together, for the guy loved somebody else... Greater than what he felt for the girl who was always there. But the girl didn't mind, for as long as they talked and bonded, she sticked around, even if it killed her inside.
Years passed and they kept in touch until one day, the girl just stopped talking to the guy. She changed her number and moved out of her house. The guy was confused and looked for the girl. But nobody knew where she was. Her parents refused to talk to him and her friends didn't know her where-abouts.
A month had passed and the guy gave up in searching for the girl. He moved on from the loss and lived his life back again.
Days, weeks, and months had gone by and it was nearing christmas day.
The guy received a card from the girl. He read it and here's what the girl said to him:
"By the time you reach this card, I'm probably gone now. I'm sorry I didn't fight for my feelings for you. I was always there waiting for you but you never came. I hope you'll be happy with her because that's what I always wanted. Your hapiness..."
Thinking that it was just a cruel trick played on him, he went to the girl's house to demand for an explanation. But instead of finding the girl there, her lifeless body lying on a casket was all he found. Her parents explained to him that the girl suffered from leukemia. Her parents gave the guy all the letters the girl wrote for him when she was in the hospital.
He read them all and tears fell because he made a mistake. He didn't realize how much the girl loved him. He blamed himself for being a jerk. The girl never complained for every pain that the guy caused him. She was always there, waiting.
If only tears can bring her back... If only....
Years passed and they kept in touch until one day, the girl just stopped talking to the guy. She changed her number and moved out of her house. The guy was confused and looked for the girl. But nobody knew where she was. Her parents refused to talk to him and her friends didn't know her where-abouts.
A month had passed and the guy gave up in searching for the girl. He moved on from the loss and lived his life back again.
Days, weeks, and months had gone by and it was nearing christmas day.
The guy received a card from the girl. He read it and here's what the girl said to him:
"By the time you reach this card, I'm probably gone now. I'm sorry I didn't fight for my feelings for you. I was always there waiting for you but you never came. I hope you'll be happy with her because that's what I always wanted. Your hapiness..."
Thinking that it was just a cruel trick played on him, he went to the girl's house to demand for an explanation. But instead of finding the girl there, her lifeless body lying on a casket was all he found. Her parents explained to him that the girl suffered from leukemia. Her parents gave the guy all the letters the girl wrote for him when she was in the hospital.
He read them all and tears fell because he made a mistake. He didn't realize how much the girl loved him. He blamed himself for being a jerk. The girl never complained for every pain that the guy caused him. She was always there, waiting.
If only tears can bring her back... If only....
Another post
Medyo nilulubos-lubos ko na ang pagpopost dahil dadating na yung kuya ko later from nowhere. Hay. I'm so unproductive today. Eto lang ang nagawa ko for today:
1. Natapos ang bagong lay-out (Yay!)
2. Kumain at nagluto
3. Nanood ng t.v.
4. Nanood ng t.v.
5. Nanood ng t.v.
Unproductive no? Ok lang yan. Di nga ako nakokonsensya eh, paano naman puro trabaho ako last week. Walang pahinga, pati Sabado may trabaho sa thesis. Hay. Bukas mukha hindi pa rin ako makakapunta dahil mukhang dadalhin ako sa doctor. Bakit? Nagtataka ako kung bakit tuwing kukunan ako ng dugo eh nagpapasa yung braso ko. I have a nasty one nga ngayon eh dahil nagpakuha ako ng dugo yesterday. Hay. I maybe sick with leukemia. Nah..
Ei guys, if you're reading this, please pray for my little cousin. He has Hirschsprung's disease (Please click the link for more information), oh wait, icoconfirm pa tomorrow kung yun nga. Sana naman hindi dahil surgery lang 'yung hope niya if ever. Problemado nga yung parents niya dahil 3 years old pa lang siya tas doctors will have to cut him up agad. Hay. I really love him so much and I hate to see him suffer. So sana hindi naman Hirchsprung sana mild constipation lang. Tas tomorrow, he'll undergo colonoscopy. Hay. Sana hindi na lang siya yung nagkaganun. Hay. We were looking forward to his program sa school this Saturday. He'll be reciting "Little Boy Blue" sa school. Hay. I sure hope and pray na wala siyang grabeng sakit. :c
Ayun. Yun po muna. :)
1. Natapos ang bagong lay-out (Yay!)
2. Kumain at nagluto
3. Nanood ng t.v.
4. Nanood ng t.v.
5. Nanood ng t.v.
Unproductive no? Ok lang yan. Di nga ako nakokonsensya eh, paano naman puro trabaho ako last week. Walang pahinga, pati Sabado may trabaho sa thesis. Hay. Bukas mukha hindi pa rin ako makakapunta dahil mukhang dadalhin ako sa doctor. Bakit? Nagtataka ako kung bakit tuwing kukunan ako ng dugo eh nagpapasa yung braso ko. I have a nasty one nga ngayon eh dahil nagpakuha ako ng dugo yesterday. Hay. I maybe sick with leukemia. Nah..
Ei guys, if you're reading this, please pray for my little cousin. He has Hirschsprung's disease (Please click the link for more information), oh wait, icoconfirm pa tomorrow kung yun nga. Sana naman hindi dahil surgery lang 'yung hope niya if ever. Problemado nga yung parents niya dahil 3 years old pa lang siya tas doctors will have to cut him up agad. Hay. I really love him so much and I hate to see him suffer. So sana hindi naman Hirchsprung sana mild constipation lang. Tas tomorrow, he'll undergo colonoscopy. Hay. Sana hindi na lang siya yung nagkaganun. Hay. We were looking forward to his program sa school this Saturday. He'll be reciting "Little Boy Blue" sa school. Hay. I sure hope and pray na wala siyang grabeng sakit. :c
Ayun. Yun po muna. :)
New Lay-out
Finally, I finished the new lay-out. I downloaded this skin from Blogskins and tweeked it a bit. The original skin was "Vintage Apples" and I don't think my blog is not about Apples, so I changed it to Vintage Dreams. Well I do like the 50's era, with all the "petticoated" women and all that black and white stuff. In fairness to the maker or "author" of the original skin, I liked the lay-out (it's simple and navigation is easy) so I retained it (thanks to whoever you are!).
So if you guys would like to say somethin' or react to my new lay-out, please write a comment on this post. I would appreciate them soI can improve my blog (my journal).. :)
So if you guys would like to say somethin' or react to my new lay-out, please write a comment on this post. I would appreciate them soI can improve my blog (my journal).. :)
Monday, October 17, 2005
OMG
OMG I saw my batchmate's pictures sa yahoo groups. My gulay. You guys were wild! Buti ala ako dun. Haha. :)
Damn!
Damn!
Saturday, October 15, 2005
u know why?
U know why I can't stay? The more time I spend talking to you, the more I get hurt. I can't move on while you're still there. Siguro dati I can't live without you by my side kaso ngayon.. Iba na. The more time I stay, the more bad thoughts. Thoughts of getting you back. I don't want that. I don't want to ruin your relationship. You're happy now.
That's why I can't stay. I need to find my own happiness.
That's why I can't stay. I need to find my own happiness.
Im watching me make a fool of myself
Silently speaking my wish to be free
Turning my world inside out
Spin my emotions building my doubt
I fed on this strangeness plain and true
But there was nothing beneathe it i knew
I see myself falling falling from grace
My life fading without grace
Im tired of waiting here fo you
Cant waste my time, im leaving you
Im watching me make a fool of myself
Silently speaking my wish to be free
Turning my world inside out
Spin my emotions building my doubt
And now that youve taken the world out of me
Im left with my body hanging free
As lovers come and comfort me
Im still left with my misery
Im tired of waiting here fo you
Cant waste my time, im leaving you
Im leaving you...
Silently speaking my wish to be free
Turning my world inside out
Spin my emotions building my doubt
I fed on this strangeness plain and true
But there was nothing beneathe it i knew
I see myself falling falling from grace
My life fading without grace
Im tired of waiting here fo you
Cant waste my time, im leaving you
Im watching me make a fool of myself
Silently speaking my wish to be free
Turning my world inside out
Spin my emotions building my doubt
And now that youve taken the world out of me
Im left with my body hanging free
As lovers come and comfort me
Im still left with my misery
Im tired of waiting here fo you
Cant waste my time, im leaving you
Im leaving you...
Saturday...
Now for some real post. :p
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So it's Saturday today. Plans? Hmm, I don't know, after posting this i'll be sleeping again till 12 noon. Cook lunch, eat and sleep till my mom comes home. I plan to sleep the whole day. There. I want to be as unproductive as a sloth. Simple as that. I'm so tired from the past sem and I want to reclaim all my sleep.
Good thing I'm home alone. Hahaha... Nobody would bother my beauty rest. :)
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I got my graduation pix yesterday. They came out ok, besides the fact that I looked like a chinese. My eyes are all puffed and small. Wahaha. Goodness. I gave 2 copies (informal and sablay pose) to my bestfriend and 1 to my aunt (creative pose). I don't know what to do the rest, probably I'll give my friends my signed photo (holy sh*t!, feeling!) and the rest, oh well, I do need to go out today. I want to buy some nice frames for my pictures. Maybe after lunch I'll be going to SM Southmall to find frames. I got one 8R toga pose na nakaframe na kaso I don't know where I'll place it kasi we don't have this special place from framed photos. My brother doesn't have his yet and my parent's photos are at their respective province. So yung akin pano? Tago ko na lang muna. :) Ayoko ngang i-post dito yun. Nakakahiya. :) Hehehe....
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So yun lang. Ala naman na akong makuwento eh. I'm so looking forward to our Bolinao trip. Hay. Sana! :)
I'm gonna sleep some more....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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So it's Saturday today. Plans? Hmm, I don't know, after posting this i'll be sleeping again till 12 noon. Cook lunch, eat and sleep till my mom comes home. I plan to sleep the whole day. There. I want to be as unproductive as a sloth. Simple as that. I'm so tired from the past sem and I want to reclaim all my sleep.
Good thing I'm home alone. Hahaha... Nobody would bother my beauty rest. :)
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I got my graduation pix yesterday. They came out ok, besides the fact that I looked like a chinese. My eyes are all puffed and small. Wahaha. Goodness. I gave 2 copies (informal and sablay pose) to my bestfriend and 1 to my aunt (creative pose). I don't know what to do the rest, probably I'll give my friends my signed photo (holy sh*t!, feeling!) and the rest, oh well, I do need to go out today. I want to buy some nice frames for my pictures. Maybe after lunch I'll be going to SM Southmall to find frames. I got one 8R toga pose na nakaframe na kaso I don't know where I'll place it kasi we don't have this special place from framed photos. My brother doesn't have his yet and my parent's photos are at their respective province. So yung akin pano? Tago ko na lang muna. :) Ayoko ngang i-post dito yun. Nakakahiya. :) Hehehe....
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So yun lang. Ala naman na akong makuwento eh. I'm so looking forward to our Bolinao trip. Hay. Sana! :)
I'm gonna sleep some more....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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