Paglalakbay ng Isang Baliw Ver. 2.0

Been very busy lately.

2010-01-25T19:47:00.002+08:00

Hi blog.

I know I haven't been able to update you for God-knows-when and I'm really sorry for that. I am totally preoccupied with a lot of academic stuff lately, for in 3 months time, I will be once again gracing the halls of the Philippine International Convention Center or much commonly known as PICC, all smiles and joining my batchmates in throwing graduation hats in mid-air.

Please don't think that I don't care for you anymore because that's not true. Amidst my chaotic and hectic lifestyle, I still recall the good times that we've shared. It's a fact that for almost 4 or 6 years now, you were always there through life's ups and downs and for that.. I've considered you as my second best friend.

With this..I promise that you'll receive more stories about me this year.. :)

Back.

2009-11-30T11:04:00.003+08:00

It's only less than a year before I graduate.. again!

Mixed emotions once more.

Sad because it's my last year in school
Happy because no more school work after graduation
Hoping to pass NLE on July (1st take!)
Confused whether to pursue med school (Take two)
Wishing to land in a good job (Hay! I don't like to be unemployed)

anyhoo, it's only less than a month before christmas..

still loveless. :'c
still penniless. :'c
still thinking of what i want for christmas.

woo. i really need to save money!

mixed emotions

2009-09-24T20:47:00.001+08:00

mixed emotions on leaving and traveling alone..

excited.
happy.
afraid.

hmm. october 18 seems to soon.

umbrella-ella-ella-eh

2009-09-05T19:11:00.002+08:00

because my umbrella retired this afternoon...

i'm gonna buy a new one just like this in japan home!

under my umbrella-ella-ella-eh!

woo!

2009-09-03T08:10:00.003+08:00

ano'ng gagawin mo kung sakaling gipit ka at may nakita kang pera sa bag na di na ginagamit ng taong kakilala mo?

ward duty

2009-09-01T22:20:00.001+08:00

hindi na ko sanay magduty sa ward!

mas gusto ko talaga sa o.r..

hay. @_@

just got home

2009-08-30T20:54:00.002+08:00

whew. i just got home from SM southmall. i'm so tired but i can't sleep yet because i'm still mass uploading pictures from ange and misi's birthday bash last night to my facebook account (i seriously dislike fb when it comes to uploading pictures - very very verrry slow).

i wasn't able to buy anything from the sale. as what i've said to my bestfriend earlier, there are only 2 good reasons why we weren't able to buy anything:

(a) the sale was so lame, we couldn't find anything that we like.

or

(b) we're already matured that we learned the art of controlling our impulsive buying behavior.

i'm going with reason (b) because i'm being extremely nice to SM southmall.. besides, i did my wallet a HUGE favor by not spending a single cent. BOO capitalism!

so that's how my day went. tomorrow, if the weather permits (and my mom of course) i'm going out again. i'm going to metropolis alabang to scout for a decent 3g phone. i'm gonna replace my phone before christmas. :)

bonne nuit everyone! =p

(special greetings to my uncle rolly! thank you po sa pagbabasa ng blog ko kahit random rants lang ito.)

after 2 years

2009-08-30T10:03:00.003+08:00

walang update ng 2 taon. grabe.

sorry if wasn't able to update you blog. i was very very busy for the past 2 years. i had to overcome writer's block (no updates for my multiply site as well, so don't be so jealous) and deal with some issues.

so whats-up ketsup?

am already in my 4th year level of nursing studies. didn't pursue medical studies boo! but i'm planning to go back after 3 or 4 years.

am into photography now (i'll be starting my very own project 365 as soon as i get hold of those vistaquest vq1015s)

still loveless. (i'm ok with it :))

i'm currently preoccupied with a lot of stuffs right now but rest assured that i'll be posting more often now. :)

it's so good to be back. :)

meet my baby!

2007-01-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

this is angie.

she's my very own i-mate jamin.

wee. ^_^

thanks mum and dad!

annoyed

2007-01-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

gahd. i'm quite annoyed with this internet cafe that i'm in. why? well they only have one FREAKIN' computer that has a disk drive and a USB port. How the f*ck am i supposed to transfer my ONE SINGLE FILE (WORD DOCUMENT) to their f*cking computer?? I'm stuck here waiting for that one INCONSIDERATE customer (she's hogging the ONE PC WITH DISK DRIVE) who's here for a very, very looong time already (she's like here for almost half an hour now). I really want to tell her: "Miss, baka pwede namang pasingit o? Sandali lang ako. Para sa thesis ko pa man din to." Hay. But I don't have the guts to tell her that. So i'm just here, in front of the jologs pc, waiting for my turn. I hope she finishes her "saving" thing. I'm really really realllllly pissed off now!!!!!! @_@

sorry for the rage mode.

argghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

:D

2007-01-09T10:48:00.000+08:00

hay. hay. hay.

aburido sa thesis.

[thesis mode]]

habertdey

2007-01-08T13:39:00.000+08:00

habertdey sa aken! wwwwooo!

ang pinakamagandang regalo sa akin:

WALANG PASOK BUKASSS!

WOO!

miss you!

2007-01-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

miss you guys!

katakawan

2007-01-04T21:30:00.000+08:00

salamat sa mga ka-block ko at pumunta kayo sa teriyaki boy.

na-miss ko kayong laaahatt!

ang mga pictures! pa-post!

seriously.

2007-01-03T17:16:00.000+08:00

seriously people.

is this the first time you've seen someone in an all-white uniform???!!

@______@

mga dapat-gawin

2007-01-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

so not to forget.

research on relationship of mtDNA with Diabetes Mellitus.

nasusuka na ko sa diabetes mellitussssss.

grrrr.

pahabol

2007-01-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

waaa.

pasukan na sa makalawa.

hindeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

lolz.

2007-01-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

what am i doing?

peeping through terry cua's friendster account!

wah! i find him cute!

well. in case you don't know him..

he's the first one to win 2 million in deal or no deal.

lucky bastard! :D

christmas gift

2006-12-31T20:17:00.000+08:00

i forgive you kuya for giving my present late.

si abi at ang sandman niya.

it was sooo worth the wait!
^_^

p.s. si kuya na officially ang pinakamagaling magregalo! (kahit na hindi niya binili yung trip kong bag na tig-1950)

year-ender

2006-12-31T18:09:00.000+08:00

a lot of things happened to me this year.

some are fun.
some are not.

but that's life, right?

you need to experience some bitter and unpleasant things as well.

anyway, i promise to post more entries next year.

happy new year everyone!

mwah!

new year's resolution

2006-12-19T18:56:00.000+08:00

pramis. next year. hay naku.

never going back...

2006-12-16T06:10:00.000+08:00

hay. kahit na pinagpalit na naman ako...

ok lang.

tuloy pa din ang buhay.

abi

2006-12-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

ok lang ako.

:'c

dumfounded.

2006-12-03T07:56:00.000+08:00

i now officially have a reputation of failing people.

hay.

sobrang down ko talaga.

adik

2006-11-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

adik pala ako sa bag.

humigit 15 na pala ang bag ko.

waaaahahaha.

at ang masaklap pa n'on...

may gusto pa ko ulit bilhin na baggggg.

gahd.

galing ng mga groupmates ko

2006-10-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

wahahaha! malapit na kaming matapos sa proposal!

ang galing natin guys!

:D

happy halloween!

2006-10-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

wee!

happy halloween guyz!

hay. i read my past entries on my previous blogs (one from blogspot and another from myspace). i sound happier back then. wahaha. ngayon para nakong old-coot! aral-aral, nood tv, makinig ng operatic sounds hay. what happened to me? ganun na ba kalaki ang pinagbago ko? hayyy.. old old old.

tulog tulog

2006-10-29T13:24:00.000+08:00

may bagyo daw a.

lolz. wala akong pakialam. ang alam ko lang, masarap matulog.

malapit na ang pasukan at malapit na din akong mag-dorm.

wahhhhhhh.

yun lang. :D

getting tired

2006-10-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

i'm getting tired of the same routine.

hay...

goddamnit

2006-10-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

damn.

lilipat na ko sa dorm sa nov. 4.

:c

abi the ripper

2006-10-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

i'm ripping off my newly bought grey's anatomy. i'm converting it to .mpg so that i could convert it to amv and so i could transfer it to my newly bought mp4 player.

i'm hoping it'll work.. because if it does. yay! i can watch my shows even if i'm in the dorm. yay me! hay. i have my fingers crossed!

P.S. May tumatawag sa bahay namin. Kumakanta lang. Wahahaha. Adiiik

kainis

2006-10-21T18:28:00.000+08:00

hay. gusto ko talagang maintindihan kung paano nagkakaroon ng rosette formation ang RBC. ggaaaa. kulang ako sa resources..

hay. susulatan ko na lang yung author nung journal. hay talaga.

sorry thinking out loud lang ako.

quest for a dorm..

2006-10-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

lolz. nakakapagod maghanap ng bahay.

haay. basta sana lang pumasa ako sa interview dun sa Pius.

tragis talaga.

Nursing, antics galore!

2006-10-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

N-U-R-S-I-N-G!

Lolz. Kelangan ko talagang ilagay yung WORD na yun dahil yun yung emphasis ng aking post for today.

Ganito kasi 'yun...

Kahapon (Sunday) nagpunta kami ng mom ko sa SM Southmall para bumili ng rolling pin (she's taking one of those TESDA courses to keep her busy) at para ipagawa ang radyo namin na ewan ko ba laging humihina at lumalakas (adik na radyo to a). Ayun. Tas nung pinapatingnan niya yung radyo, nagpaalam ako na pupunta ako sa Rusty Lopez (shoe store) para magtingin ng school shoes (sus. sa sobrang ulan at init at layo ng dinanas ko nung last sem, pudpod na yung takong ng sapatos ko.) Ayun. So ako tingin-tingin naman ako kahit hindi bibili. Tas may lumapit na dalawang babae (mukhang matanda sa akin eh) dun sa kabilang shelf na tinitingnan ko. Apparently, tinitingnan pala nila yung mga white shuzz. So ako naman, mega mind-your-own business lang ang drama ko. Kaso mo, nung narinig ko ang mga susunod na pahayag, di ko talaga kinaya at umalis na lang ako...

Ito yung pinag-usapan nila... (Syempre hindi na verbatim)

Girl 1: Malapit na akong magsuot nito! Yay (Sabay hawak sa puting shuz)
Girl 2: Di mag-thi third year ka na? (Tingin din sa chorvang shuz)
Girl 1: Oo no! N-U-R-S-I-N-G! NURSING! Go! Nursing!

Oh my gahhhhd. Hindi naman masyadong proud ang lola mo sa course niya at may cheering cheering chorva pang nalalaman. Naku. No offense sa mga nursing dyan ha. Kung pwede lang talagang manakal, sinakal ko na yun. Oo alam ko ang iniisip mo, pakialam ko di ba? Sus. Hindi naman kelangan mag-rarara shishboomba ka sa mall para lang ipangalandakan mo na nursing ka. Baka nakakalimutan niyang may scandal pa ang pilipinas dyan sa boarding exam scam. Sus. Kung ako nga med ang kinukuha ko hindi mo naman ako makikitang nag-sisigaw ng "Give me a M! M!" "Give me an E! E!" "Give me a D! D" "Give me an I! I" Nakakapagod mag-type, basta gets niyo naman di ba? Wahaha. Masarap lang talagang mambalahura.

Malakas lang talaga ang fighting spirit nung isang yun.

Wahahaha.
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Anyway, maiba ako. Hay. 12 days na lang pala at enrollment na naman namin. Bwiset. Gusto ko pang matulog.

Yay. Sana makapunta ako sa Huwebes. Block get-together daw eh.

At.. Maghahanap na ako ng bahay! NNNyyyuuuu!!

Dormer na ako next sem! T_T

sembreak shopping

2006-10-14T17:36:00.000+08:00

wohoho. i just came back from sm and i bought 3 books from booksale.

I bought Louise Rennison's Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging (some no-brainer brit chic lit - I remember posting an entry here about her other book: Knocked Out by my Nunga-Nungas), Blair Witch Files: The Witch's Daughter (prep for this halloween.) and Campfire Chillers (compilation of 9 scary stories by famous authors like edgar allan poe)

Weehee. Total spending on these books: 120 pesos (approximately $2.40) Not bad huh? looll.

Anyway, I need to finish this entry early since I need to use the fone (yuck. low-tech. di uso ang DSL eh). wehehe. :)

vacation

2006-10-14T11:11:00.000+08:00

i miss being swamped with school work. gah.

.........

hay

2006-10-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

kakauwi ko lang mula sa isang sobrang sayang "mini-celeb" of our good performance sa physio sgd! grabe. almost 3 hours kaming nag-sgd with dra. munnariz! tas ang suwerte kasi nung niaya namin si dra. munnariz na kumain sa chicken chicken (near csb), pumayag siya! super kulit ni mam! grabe! tas syempre ako super daldal to the maxxx! grabe! tawa na nga lang sila ng tawa! ever. hay. grabe ang sarap ng manok sa chicken chicken (with the special cinnamon sauce - joel! totoo! ironically.. masarap nga silang magkasama!) ayun. tas kanta sa prov. with dra. munnariz!! woooo! galing kanta si ma'am ng: 1. Sorry seems the hardest word (elton john, score: 96) 2. all my life (kc and jojo, score: 98) 3. i can make it through the rain (barry manilow, score: 98) may isa pa eh. sobrang saya to the max! ako nag-rendition ng mga eheads na song, saka pamatay ko na luha at halik ng aegis! Reyna ata to ng aegis! Grabe! Wahahaha. Anyway, may outing kami sa wednesday sa san mateo (kila ams). SWIMMINGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! WAAAAAA!!! ANG SAYAAAAAA! Ayun. Nuf said. Talagang naaliw ako kay dra. munnariz. Kala ko ndi tao yun. Wakokoko. ^_^ Mahilig din pala sa kantahan. At take note. bibili na siya ng magic sing! All thanks to me! Grabe!

Sige gudnyt!

whew..!

2006-10-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

sem's over!

woo!!

let's parteh!

well not quite yet. i need to work on our group's research problem and labcon in physio..

boo!!!!!

newei, i'll be posting stories and pictures during the sem break!

freeeeeedooom!

gahaha.

2006-10-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

sori for the lack of update.

web mistress = v. busy due to shenanigans caused by bagyong milenyo (utang ang story), med shifting!

i promise to update asap. ;p

zomg

2006-09-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

i want thissss....

gah. this guess gift pack costs 2,400 pesos ($48) and it contains:

EDP spray 75ml

Shimmering Body Lotion 100 ml

Hair and Body Shampoo 100ml

Travel size Eau de Parfum 7.5 ml

shete. i saw this when i went to glorietta this afternoon. i'm sooo lusting at this perfume right now.... waaah. i can't buy it since my money (which my dad gave me) is for my new mp4 player. hay. GUESS i'll have to wait for another miracle (money) to happen/come. gahd. so frustrated.

flickr account!

2006-09-23T14:05:00.000+08:00

visit my flickr account! hugs!!

link: captain crazypaws account

gah

2006-09-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

people. meron ba naka-download ng opening song ng grey's anatomy? gah. pa-send sa email or please send me a copy. or or pa-burn sa cd. pleeeease??!! message niyo ko!

wah

2006-09-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

kulang ang break ko! wah. :'c

daming gagawin next week... well. what's new di ba? Hehe..

Exam sa anatomy
SGD - Renal Physio
FCM - Assignment

Waaaaaaaa

fine

2006-09-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

daming case.

pucha. hyperventilation and sleep apnea, and carbon monoxide poisoning. at ang malupit jan. may long exam sa anatomy ngayong wednesday. lintek

update on the name game

2006-08-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

man when i made a deeper research on my surname (ruidera) I found two doctors with the same surname!!

Julius Ruidera, MD

Chicago Medical School

Emilio Ruidera, MD

Midwest City, Oklahoma

so maybe, just maybe, i'm really destined to become a doctor eh? hmm... Abigail Ruidera, MD. Gandang pakinggan no?

the name game

2006-08-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

Wow. Instead of studying for the short quiz in neuro-ana, I ended up looking for my relatives in the internet. here's what i found:

Sis. Isabel Dalawangbayan - (Institute of Catechetics of the Archdiocese of Manila - Formation head)

I recall meeting her at my gramparent's house. Very nice lady

Senior Police Officer 1 Wilfredo Dalawangbayan - (Case Investigator - Las Piñas City Police)

I met him last.. uhh.. month? He looks the same as my late uncle

Rolando and Jasper Dalawangbayan - (Rolando - Graduated from Batangas Eastern Academy '68, Jasper - listed in Namesdir.com as one of the popular names with the Dalawangbayan surname, Board passer - MD!!)

Rolando's my uncle and Jasper's my cousin!! Small world!

Of course I saw my name in the net. I remember I already wrote an entry about that. Wehehe. In case you're wondering why I don't have a list for the "RUIDERA" clan... It's because, to tell you guys honestly, I don't know a lot of my relatives from that side of my family (of course with the exception of my gorgeous lola, aunties and cousins - not to forget my dad!) and when I tried to search "RUIDERA" in google, all I got were spanish websites containing the word Ruidera! Wow. So I have Spanish blood running in my veins and arteries? Cool! Spanish bread! :p

Anyway, if ever those mentioned people search their name in google (like I did.. wow. I don't think they'd do that) at least they'd be redirected to this site! coolness! So to you guys (Tita or should I say Sis. Isabel, Tito Willy, Tito Rolly and Kuya Jasper)A big HI! to all of you Lolz. Haha. Bored....

hay

2006-08-21T19:51:00.000+08:00

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Babe I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
'Cause I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

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I'm currently watching Michael Buble's concert (I fell inlove with his voice na!!) and I find his song: Home (I dunno if this is already a remake) really nice. Hay. I dunno. I'm feeling blue lately. Then I'm having doubts with the whole idea of being a doctor. I feel lost and confused at the same time.. :c Hay. I don't like this feeling and I don't want to tell my family because I know they'd be disappointed with me. Hay. So confused. Anyway.. here's a very nice quote I received from my classmate Gelin:

I am wounded, perhaps burnt by embolismic expectations from my family, friends, & other relationships. Perhaps i am tired of tring to be the best. But when I come to think that I want to be a doctor... It eliminates my frustrations..."-Guyton, MD

I wanna go home..

pic

2006-08-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

want to see my blockmates in med school?

click --> :)

gahd. i'm thinking of switching to multiply. less hassle when uploading pics.

darn it.

there goes not joining the bandwagon scheme.

wait for more updates.

ages

2006-08-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

wow.. it's been ages since i wrote something here. hay. ican't do anything about it. maybe i'm losing my passion for writing. i dunno. maybe i'm losing interest in my life generally. i wonder how my blockmates' are doing in their chosen career paths. i hope they're doing fine. anyway (although, dr. razon told us not to use the word ANYWAY - because it means your thoughts are very disorganized - a big NO-NO for a speaker/doctor - THE HECK! I'll still going to use ANYWAY many times) good news is that we have no classes on Monday (Ninoy Aquino Day) but the bad news is, I need to study!! (hay. it would take a miracle for the opposite to happen). I need to do good on this shifting. I sucked at Anatomy BIG TIME so I need to study harder.

Ok. Nuf said. I'll be back to write something.

Writer's block? I dunno.

How I envy those people who can do anything they want to do. Miserable.

meet my classmates

2006-08-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

ngayon lang ako nakapagpost ng picture picture!

wahaha! takip na naman ako dito! (yung isa pic - na hindi naka-post dito eh tinakpan yung ulo ko ni pat!) aba naman kasi. yung mga niuupload eh puro pangit ang kuha ko! aruu! next time magdadala nga ako ng camera!!)

abi is busy

2006-07-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

busy si abi.

eeeeekkk. shifting

crawling!

2006-07-25T19:31:00.000+08:00

gahhh... i can't shove more info in my head. crawling inside my headddd! lolz. aral na nga ulit!

grrr

2006-07-24T08:43:00.000+08:00

grrr. my fone's broke so i borrowed the house's or rather our store's fone (we use it for autoload and eload) to text alex. i said i love you there (but of course!! i do love the guy!) and he replied i love you too! oh joy.. not! my mom saw the message and now.. she's bugging me about who the hell is 0926*******! @$%#@! (that translates to some curse) She's going to make that a big issue. My day's ruined. Shoot me. @_@

oh hot girls

2006-07-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

mmm.. sizzlin!

catch this hot gals strut their stuff this july 28.

oh lala!

(thanks: mahir.se for the pic)

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i won't be posting for the next few weeks. shifting exams are due 1st week of august. i need to cram.. rather study. lolz.

xoxo

Abi

hay

2006-07-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

we sleep all, we sleep all day...

gahd. i miss my bed so much. i miss hanging out with my bestfriend. i miss doing nothing! gahd. med life's sucking the life out of me. i know i'm doing this med thing wrong because i'll eventually lose the "passion" / drive to become what it takes to become a successful doctor. i wish i could be like Dr. Hunter "Patch" Adams (which reminds me. people, you should watch patch adams. it's a good film!)

hay. speaking of patch adams, i researched the sonnet which Patch read to his girl in Patch Adams..

Here it is :)

"I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving
but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

it's from Pablo Neruda. It's a very nice sonnet no? Very romantic!

lolz

2006-07-15T17:01:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy!

happy birthday mom!! :p

will post something.. pag ndi na busyyyy

pagod

2006-07-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

PLM = DRACONIAN!

Buti nga nasupalpal si safra (not the very infamous jessica zafra) nung orientation. pano ba naman napaka-ironic ng mga policies nila! nakakainis! contradicting na nga ang labo pa. bawal gumamit ng mga transcriptions. dapat fully paid ang tuition fee. dapat igalang ang mga tao. puro dapat. puchang dapat yan ah. akala ko ba professionals na kami? tas they're treating us like we're some grade school kids. badtip. badtrip. hay. ang strict pa ni dr. munarriz. kakawindang yung taong yun. hay.

on the bright side may mga bago na akong friends. si krizzie (naks, bonding pa kami niyan pagpuntang makati nung friday), si jaja (over! punta kaming bambang for stuffs), si joan (astig! taga-up lb to!), si kristel (wayop. isa pang maton to eh), si mr. vergara na malapit ng maka-strike sa akin, sino pa ba? ah si katrina na habulin ng mga bms guys at si mr. christian ripaaaarip (long a daw e). (aba naman ang dami na nun ah). ayun. pero wala pang party, paano ba naman kasi magkakaroon eh 2 long test namin next week (take note: gross ana at physio ang exam!) at meron pang lab con sa tuesday sa physio (1st group to report! ayos!) ayun. masaya naman din kahit papaano. next sem pala siguradong dormer/roomie na ako. susme. kumusta naman yun. kayanin ko kaya? hay.

anyway, yun muna. kelangan kong aralin si gray. exam na sa wednesday e!

hay. sana lang talaga... kayanin ko.

sa mga ka-batch ko. pasensya na. hindi ako nakapunta. super out of the way na ang rob. try kong bumawi. siguro sa susunod. kung meron pa. :p

pasubali

2006-06-27T20:47:00.000+08:00

pasensya na. toxic lang po talaga.

utang ang entry. sa friday baka mababayaran.

rest rest rest

2006-06-22T17:15:00.000+08:00

gah. this is the only time i could be here for a longer period of time.

hay. thank God it's friday tomorrow. nothing to worry about since it's just MedEthics1 (man, this subject is testing our morals!) and Clinical Neuro-Anatomy (Dr. Calaquian rules! ~ he's one of the few cool doctors/prof in PLM) hay. anyway. what's happening with me during the past few weeks? well to elaborate, we had quizzes on almost every goddamn subject. we already covered a few chapters on our medical textbooks. we saw and studied human bones in our gross anatomy class (july 10 - 1st dissection!!). also had a case discussion about myocardial infarction in biochem. had fun in physio class with Dr. Anita So (gahd. she's cool and she doesn't look her age). learned that jeriel (de silos) got accepted in UPCM (he pulled out all his enrollment stuffs from plm!) tried some of the cafeteria food. meet some new people (katrina's so nice. hihi. special mention) been hanging out with alex, dhess, and sumayao every break time. never had a failed quiz (yay!) yet. encountered some of the worst and terror teachers (Dr. Somera, Dr. Wong to name a few) of plm. hay. all in all, i've already had my shares of ups and partly downs.

time is really fast when you're in med school. people are alot different from undergrad: more competitive, more serious (except for our lot) and more tired. i really need to exert alot of effort this time because of the pressure. hay. i sure hope i can make it through the next years. :)

waiting for an attachment

2006-06-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

this is the only time i could post something here. hay.

don't worry my everdearest blog.. someday i'll revive youuu

Five-star doctor

2006-06-19T18:28:00.000+08:00

Here's what I wrote for my Family and Community med.. :)

"What is a FIVE-STAR doctor?"

Let me first share to you a story.

During my recent visit in the province, my mother had an accident. To elaborate, she was stung in the hand by a wasp. We were all hopeless at that time because it was already 10 pm and we were far from "civilization" (barrio setting - few houses were built around that area). My mom has a low tolerance on pain so she demanded to be rushed to the hospital immediately. So we tried the nearest district hospital in the hope that my mother's condition be alleviated. Good thing there were people who generously assisted us (there were 2 nurses who attended to my mother). But what was remarkable, was the doctor who diagnosed my mom. He was alert and attentive even if his sleep was interrupted. He did not show any signs of disgust nor boredom. He listened and treated the case with great importance. He was such in a good mood and I really felt that he knew what he was doing. That man (I didn't have the chance to know his name), that doctor, was there even if the hospital can't offer a good compensation for his efforts. After that incident, something hit me. I realize that I want to be like that doctor.

For me, he was the epitome of a 5-star doctor.

So what are the characteristics of a 5-star doctor?

First and foremost, a 5-star doctor should be willing to serve. He should treat every case with importance even if it was as simple as a bee sting. He should deal with every patient tactfully and equally regardless of ethnicity or economic standing.

Second, he should have an idea of what he's doing. Meaning, he should be knowledgeable and equipped with the right skills in curing people. This is important because the patient's life depends on the decision of the doctor. As the famous saying goes: "There's no room for mistakes."

Last but not the least, a 5-star doctor should be flexible. Regardless of what time it is, a doctor should always be alert and "ready for action." A doctor should always remember that the people need him 24/7.

Is it possible to achieve these standards?

The answer is yes. I believe in the saying that everything is possible when you put your mind and soul to something. I think that if I set myself in achieving the mentioned qualities then probably, someday I could be a 5-star doctor.

Then how can I be one?

Of course, it is important to primarily accept the challenge of being a doctor. It is a given fact that one should endure a lot of sacrifices before achieving the title "Dr." So upon embracing this career path, he should develop a constant hunger for knowledge. Mediocrity is not welcome in this profession, so one should strive to be the best. However, one should also consider his health while achieving this feat. All in all, a 5-star doctor should be a well-rounded individual: One that is willing to help and at the same time, considering his own well-being.

spirited away..

2006-06-18T16:51:00.000+08:00

i didn't get to go to shangri-la because i'm so busy. busy reading my notes. busy writing our case study. busy in everything. hay. med school's tough! plm's tough. hay. anyway, i just went online to see if my groupmates in biochem are online (and apparently, they're not). Till next time! Tootles.

gahd!

2006-06-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

i know i'm supposed to have no social life at all.. but..

I'm dying to go to shangri-la this friday or this saturday!

Crap. They're showing french films there for only 50 pesos! ($1) It's because we're celebrating (is this the right term for this?) French Spring in Manila 2006. And they have like a line of programs for the whole month of June - July (including the French Film festival which runs from June 8 - June 18). I knew this from last weekend's newspaper and the brochure that my mom gave me. Gahd. I'm so excited!

Anyway, med school's tough but I know (deep down) I can take down my major subjects if I focus and if I study well. I already have several acquaintances besides my UP Manila Batchmates but I really haven't made friends with them yet. Hay. I'm still adjusting with my new school (I'm still experiencing "culture shock" - you better believe it!) and with new curriculum. Hay. Anyway... That's about it for now. I'm really sleepy and uberly tired from thinking. Lol.

so what?

2006-06-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

so what kung wala ka sa friends list ko?

kawalan ka ba?

HINDE!

Overdue post

2006-06-11T07:15:00.000+08:00

I got a new lay-out here. :p

Hay. I'll be posting something here tomo!

mall!

2006-06-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

ang laki ng sm mall of asia!

susme. will elaborate sa susunod na possst! @_@

changes..

2006-06-03T18:07:00.000+08:00

ugh. parang wala akong naintindihan sa orientation kung hindi...

"be prepared to undergo some major changes in your life."

changes. changes. changes!! hay. kahit naman ma-badtrip ako at mag-succumb (naks, succumb daw) sa kung ano yung nakasanayan ko walang mangyayari sa akin. mababaliw lang ako at ayun. crash and burn...! hay. kung bakit kasi hindi naging madali ang maabot/makuha yung mga gusto mo sa buhay? hay. abi. dapat prepared ka na noon pa. alam mo namang isang malaking sakripisyo yang pagduduktor eh. ginusto mo yan kaya dapat panindigan mo. hay. siguradong simula ng june 13, unti-unting mawawalan ako ng buhay at magiging preso sa mga aklat na nakapalibot sa akin. madrama at maseryoso, oo. pero yun yung katotohanan.

masaklap. mahirap. madugo. pero kakayanin. nakakahiya sa mga taong umaasa. saka kung pumalya ako, ako din naman ang higit na masasaktan. ako ang higit na manghihinayang. hay.

*kung hindi mo alam ang pamantayan ng PLM-CM..

BAWAL BUMAGSAK!

...dahil...

Sayang ang PERA at ORAS!

Pinopost ang Shifting grade para makita lahat ng estudyante.

Pinapadala sa mga magulang ang grade every shifting.

Pag bumagsak ka, hindi ka allowed na ma-promote sa susunod na taon.

Higit sa lahat...

Wala na yung pangarap mo na maging isang mangagamot.

Ayos.

Negative Reinforcement.
Kaya ko to.

BRING IT ON!!!!

this post makes no sense...

2006-05-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

shet bukas orientation na. badtrip. ayoko pang pumasok. ewan. ang gulo. ndi pa ko nagpapatahi ng uniporme. shet ulit. sana sa july talaga magsusuot ng uniform. gusto ko ng makita yung bar pin ko. gusto kong magpagawa ng isa pa. ang nakalagay: "Bangag ako." Cool siguro yun. Hay. Magpapaka-autistic na lang ako. Shet ulit. Pasukan na naman. Gusto kong bumili ng bagong shoes. Yung peep toe. Namimiss ko na si ALEX!! Wah. Sana umuwi na siya. Wajung!! Ehehe. Hay. Nakakita na ko ng bag. Kaso ayokong bilhin. Imitation ng Fendi. Takot yung nanay ko. Baka daw masira. Ganda nga eh. Hay. Ilang shopping trips na pinuntahan ko wala pa din! Wah. Nasabi ko na ata yun. Hay. Hay. Hay. Bukas pupunta kong 168! Bibilhin ko yung peep toe. Siguro 350 lang yun. Sana samahan ako ng nanay ko. Hay ulit. Sige na. Saka na ulit. Wala ng sense eh. Para na kong sira na kumakausap sa sarili ko. Wajunnggg!

kudos

2006-05-31T19:56:00.000+08:00

block three batch 06 logo..

'stigggg...

random thoughts on change

2006-05-31T09:53:00.000+08:00

Hindi lahat ng tao nabubuhay sa kanilang mga nakaraan...

Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same.

lahat nagbabago.

hay.

search for the elusive bag. multiply bandwagon. falling in love

2006-05-30T18:17:00.000+08:00

Hay. Up to know.. Wala pa rin akong nahahanap na magandang bag for med school. Madami na kong napuntahang shopping trips (in no part. order: Greenhills, SM, Tutuban, Baclaran, 168, Divisoria Mall, Ebay shit!) pero wala! Wala talagang hihigit dun sa 900 bag sa Greenhills. I'm a Juicy juicy juicy girl. Lolz. May isang buwan pa naman ako bago mag-puti eh. Wait. Tama ba ako? Mga PLM med people... Totoo bang sa July pa dapat mag-suot ng uniporme? Watta! Meron pa lang akong tela (US Clothman ito boy!) pero no uniform yet. Hay. Nag-iipon pala ako ng pera (reminder! abi bawal gumastos. bawal muna ang luho) para may pambili ng mp4 player. Kelangan ko ng pagpahingahin yung mp3 player ko. Mukhang susuko na eh. Hindi na kaya ang apat na taong muling paninilbihan sa akin. Anyway, sana makaipon ako ng 3500 (3200 siya sa PCX - ATC Branch) para dun. Hay.

Aba naman. Ang mga ka-block ko sa UP, may sariling bandwagon! Gumawa ng multiply account! Nakita ko na yung kila jessa, abi, wency at marvin.. Oi baka meron pang iba dyang may multiply! Di ko kayang i-give up tong blogspot ko dahil medyo marami na din akong enties dito at baka hindi ko malipat lahat. Altho maganda naman ang multiply, mas gusto ko kasi ang blogspot. Saka hindi pa supported ng aking publisher (w.bloggar v4.00) ang site ng multiply.. Ahehe. Makikibasa na lang ako ng mga entry niyo. Wait speaking ng blog, uy Mnel (naks special mention!) kahapon ko lang na-access yung site mo. Grabe. Lagi kasing nag-aapear yung "cannot connect to server" ayun. Ewan ko kung bakit pero kahapon na-access ko na siya. Ehehehe. :D Siguro pag may medyo mahaba akong net hours saka ko aasikasuhin ang magpalit ng lay-out. Nasasawa na ako sa Vintage chorva na ito. Medyo feel ko ang "rain" (ulan) na theme. So ayun. Alam kong matagal ko ng pinangako pero sige pag nagka-time ako blog.. Papalitan na kita ng bagong theme. (^_^)

Hay. Iniisip ko din palang mag-palit na rin ng publisher. Maganda ba ang WordPress? Meron ba dyan na may idea tungkol dun? :D Hay. Dami kong gustong gawin pero lagi akong walang oras, o laging tinatamad.. hay ulit. :c

Lapit na pala pasukan! June 1 and 2 orientation na namin tas june 5 na pasukan! Waaah! Kaya ko kaya? Ahumm.. Ahummm... Feel ko ngang magpaka-toxic at magpaka-anti social eh. Aru. Uubra kaya? Malalaman na lang natin sa mga susunod na araw. Hay.

Anyway, maiba ako. Muli't muli... Mukhang in-like na naman ako. In-like lang di pa in-love. Haha. Kakaaliw nga eh. I mean walang commitment! Pero ewan ko.. Considered na siguro kaming mag-M.U. (ewan. gusto ko siya, gusto din niay ko pero di kami). Wow. Parang high school. Ahaha. Pero hanggang dun muna. Gusto kong maayos na. 20 na ko! Shit! Hay.

(^_^) Sobra. High. Sarap ma-inlove muli't muli...

Kahit ilang beses na akong nasaktan. Umiyak. Nagpaiyak. Nadapa. Nagalit. Hindi pa rin nawawala ang paniniwala kong nariyan lang s'ya. Nariyan lang ang taong magpapatibok sa puso ko. Nandiyan lang siya... Lalalala. Hay. :*

pic

2006-05-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid nobody will catch me if I fall... *sniff!*

rack en rawled!

2006-05-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

Naku. Hindi iyan picture ng isang babaeng nababahuan. Ako yan at ang student enrollment record ko sa PLM. Hindi ko pa pala nasabi pero sa University of the City of Manila (better known as Pamatasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila) ako magpapatuloy ng pag-aaral ng medisina. Hay. Sobrang pinaghirapan ko ang makapag-enroll! Last week pa nga akong pabalik-balik sa school para lang asikasuhin ang iba't-ibang credentials, requirements at kung anu-ano pang ka-chorvahan. Pero finally! finallllly talaga... Natapos din akong mag-enroll. Ahaha. Sa mga nagnanais na malaman ang aking mahiwagang toxic sched, eto na.. eto naaaa!

Monday:

8 - 12 PM - Histology
1 - 4 PM - Family and Community Medicine 1

Tuesday:

8 - 12 PM - Physiology
1 - 5 PM - Physiology (ulit!!!)

Wednesday:

8 - 12 PM - Gross Anatomy
1 - 5 PM - Gross Anatomy (na naman!)

Thursday: (mega toxic day!)

7 - 11 AM - Unang Biochemistry
12 - 3 PM - Pangalawang Biochem
4 - 5 PM - Biochem pa rin!

Friday: (TGIF)

8 - 10 AM - Medical Ethics 1
10 - 12 PM - Neuro-anatomy

O di ba toxic? Ahaha. Kaya advanced paumanhin na sa inyo para sa mga susunod na araw, dahil lubhang magiging madugo talaga ang labanan. Susmaryosep! Buti na lang sa July pa ako mag-uuniform! Ayokong mag-palda! Ayoko! Ayoko! Madungis pa naman akong bata! Wahh! Miss ko na ang UP. Hay. Hay. Hay.... :c

quote for blog users

2006-05-25T18:29:00.000+08:00

"For some idiotic reason, your most horrific experiences are the stories you most love to tell."

Comin' back

2006-05-25T09:00:00.000+08:00

I went to upm yesterday!

Wah! I miss my alma mater! :c

Hay. I'm goin' to school (and it's not UPM nemore. huhu) after lunch to submit my credentials. I wonder if my other batchmates (med studes) are havin' troubles with frat/soro, org recruitments. Gahd. Intay niyo muna kaming maka-enroll! Lintek! Lol.

I've heard that my batchmate Joe (Joeriggo Reyes) already applied as an instructor in UPM. Naks naman. The next Jasper Obico pala si Joe. Haha. Sige nga Joe. Iganti mo kami. Pahirapan mo din yung mga students. Ahaha.

Hay. Mamya na lang yung ibang update.. Mirmo time!

Yatch depaun!

"Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall."

(i love this song. ^_^ it's from Teddy Geiger's For you I will.)

For someone I miss..

2006-05-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

"Where'd You Go?"
~Fort Minor~

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

Tea time with abi

2006-05-20T16:24:00.000+08:00

Ewan ko..

...Pero "acquired taste" lang talaga ang tsaa para sa akin. Hindi ko ito gusto dahil wala itong lasa. Ginagamit ko lang ang tsaa para makalimot sa kape. Kailangan ko lang uminom ng tsaa kasi gusto kong matunawan. Hindi dahil gusto ko ito at hindi rin dahil mahal ko ang tsaa. Umiinom ako nito upang makalimot at dahil kailangan ko ang tsaa.

...Maihahalintulad ko ito sa pagmamahal na pinilit mahinog. Minahal mo ang isang tao hindi dahil mahal mo talaga siya. Nasa piling ka niya dahil gusto mong makalimot sa nakaraan. Nagtatagal ka dahil yun yung tingin mo na kailangan mong gawin. Kailangan mo iyong gawin dahil yun lang ang alam mong paraan para makabawi sa mga pag-aalala niya sa iyo.. Yun lang ang alam mong gawin para hindi mo siya masaktan.

...Ang epekto ng tsaa sa akin ay masahol lalo na kung nasa labas ako. Sasakit ang tyan ko ng sobra, hihilab at uutot ng walang pakundangan. Kapag gabi ko ito ininom tiyak na hindi ako makapagkatulog. Balisang-balisa ako at pabalik-balik sa banyo. Hanggang umabot sa puntong mailalabas ko rin ang lahat ng laman ng sikmura ko.. success! muli sa loob ng banyo.

...Gaya ng pagmamahal na pilit, hindi maaring walang masaktan. Masahol ang epekto nito sa taong pinilit mong mahalin. Dahil minsan bigla ka na lang magigising na may mabigat na dinadala. Hindi mo ito mapigilan at mapipilitan kang sabihin sa taong pinilit mong mahalin.

...Subalit kaiba sa pag-inom ng tsaa, hindi "success!" ang pakikipag-hiwalay sa taong pinilit mong mahalin... Dahil hindi ka naging tapat sa iyong damdamin at mas lalo mo lamang siyang sinaktan. Sa huli, ikaw ang talo dahil dadalhin mo ito ng pang-habambuhay sa iyong konsensya..

Iyon lamang po.

Mahal ko talaga ang kape. Subalit dahil lagi akong nahihilo sa kape, tsaa na lang muna. :c

lol

2006-05-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

rip off of the controversial da vinci code..

"the de venecia code"

think i'm kidding?

check this out: The Da Vinci Code vs. The De Venecia Code

what will they think of next?

haha. i ain't gonna sleep yet.

still waiting for southpark later (11 pm). :p

da vinci mania

2006-05-18T08:22:00.000+08:00

today is may 18.

crap. i want to go out and watch the da vinci code.

the only reason i'm watchin' da vinci is to see if that movie live up to my expectations. there are so many people making a big fuss out of that movie. in some countries, there were really desperate attempts to ban the movie (there was a religious leader who went in a hunger strike as a protest against the movie).. it's just a movie for cryin' out loud! and it's not based on proven facts (uhmm kaya yung classification nung novel eh FICTION!!!) hay. besides... if your faith is that strong, why would you let yourself get influenced by a movie? kaya nga tinawag na faith eh! also, in this era of information ek-ek, we should be open-minded... let me just remind you that we are a superior race.. we are given a thinking brain. we are not mindless drones! we are critical and analytical. hay.

oh well...

basta ako, manonood ako.

:p

P.S. The Da Vinci Code is Rated R. Meaning only "matured" adults (those belonging to the age group of 18 years old and above) can watch this movie. Ahaha. Good thing i'm already 20. They (MTRCB) will see to it that no pirated copies of the movie will be sold (I doubt).

================================

A follow up on the pink urinals...

(Thanks prince for supplying me the info on why MBF chose the color pink)

This issue was tackled on April 2006 ish of FHM (naks abi, ganda naman ng source of information mo!)

The question was: "Should pink urinals be a national landmark, to be installed at 10 meter regular intervals in every city in this fine country?"

Daym! Every 10 meters? Lol. Pink mania? My eyes! It burns!

matters..

2006-05-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

and you said: "don't worry.. things won't change between the two of us."

righttt..

lies.

hay. don't mind me. i'm just ranting about being "sablay" always when it comes to that friggin' thing called love. haaaay. oh well.. if it's not meant for me, then so be it. i'm ready to be a spinster for life. huh! you guys are not getting some of my sweet lovin'!! it's your goddamn loss and not mine. lolz.

anyway...

movin' on to more important matters..

I heard MMDA's giving free deo (deodorant) to jeepney drivers.

and that's going to help our society in what way? ahh.. promoting good hygiene. oo nga naman.. "cleanliness is next to godliness." besides, that free deo scheme solves the problem of a localized air pollution inside the vehicle (if you know what I mean... *winks*)

pero pansin ko lang ah...

my gadar (gay radar) is registering strong activity on Mayor Bayani Fernando..

1st the pink fences
then those really offensive pink male urinals

now he's more concerned with male hygiene than the endless problem of traffic?

oh come on...

why choose the color pink for those goddamn annoying fences (seryoso to. yung fence na nasa boundary ng cavite and las pinas laging natutumba!) and for those urinals? man! pink's not visible at night! so what's up with choosing pink as the official color of MMDA? Lolz. What was Bayani's slogan (it's posted in EDSA)? Guwapo? Badtrip.. I can't remember that sign. If anyone knows that freaking sign, please leave a message on my tagboard or kindly post it on my comments box.

anyway...

am i the only one who thinks MBF is a bit feminine? (c'mon share your thoughts!)

o baka naman bitter ka lang dahil yung "recent ex" mo na jonding eh mahilig sa pink...?

no. i'm just making an honest observation here. i might be wrong or something.. all i'm asking is: "ano ba ang symbolism ng color pink sa ating society?" "bakit yun? bakit yun ang napili ni MBF na ipintura sa mga structures dito???"

yun lang po. ahehehe

(and i consider all of this... important? haha)

**a totally unrelated statement: "med student na ko sa june!"
(will elaborate on next post. :D)

waiting sux.. big time!

2006-05-15T09:27:00.000+08:00

yup. you heard me.

waiting sucks..

ulan

2006-05-12T07:56:00.000+08:00

pumapatak na naman ang ulan sa bubong ng bahay..

:)

Hay

2006-05-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

Nangangarap akong muling... mag-swimming!

Syete. Feeling ko pinaglihi ako ng nanay ko sa tubig o sa isda nung baby pa ako. O baka naman anak ako ng sirena, hindi ko lang alam... ahihihi.. pwede! Ay naku, grabe. Malapit na ang june! ilang hinga na lang patayan na naman! pero ok lang.. kinukundisyon ko na nga sarili ko para sa panibagong patayan. ahihihi... hay. kayanin ko kaya ang mag-dissect ng patay? Hmm.. Acquired taste siguro. Kung yung pagkatay ng pusa nun super dreaded ko talaga pero parang after kong nabalatan at.. (sige i-censored ko na nga. masyado ng gory) ok na. hehe. ano kayang mapupunta sa aking patay? babae kaya o lalaki? papangalanan ko kaya? hmm.. wag na lang siguro. baka pagmultuhan pa ako eh. leche. haha.

ay naku. walang magawa! hehe. bukas uwi ulit ako ng batangas. pero one day lang yun. at walang swimming na involved. hay. pwede na rin. kesa naman mabobo ako dito sa bahay. hay naku. yung kabilang bahay naman yung nag-vivideoke. takte niyong lahat! pasa-pasa bahay ang mga jologs dito. pano pa kaya sa linggo? wahaha.. kami naman ang babawi. langya kayo. ang lagay kayo lang? huh! grad pa naman ng kapatid ko nun. huh! at ang matindi pa dun isasabay dun yung bitrhday ng tita ko! langya kayo! paumagahan din kami! bwiset! (grabe kasi kagabi, yung kinuwento kong peste na nag-iingay, nagbasag pa ng plato nung madaling-araw! peste! tumawag nga yung nanay ko sa baranggay!) nuissance! ampf!

hay. sige na bago lumabas ang mga kaugatan ko sa leeg, maglilipat muna ko ng mga music files sa mp3 player. mahaba-habang tulugan na naman bukas!! hehe. road trippppp! babu!

Abi Recommends...

2006-05-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

bloody hell..

gahddd. my crazy neighbors are driving me insane! they're havin' their usual videoke marathon! ay.. naku. ohh.. now... now they're singing the immortal: "Bato sa Buhangin by Ernami Cuenco" Shit. that song's like frank sinatra's my way tagalog counterpart. crap. if i get hold of a shotgun, i'm gonna shoot them down. no, maybe.. a slow and painful death will satisfy me. goddamn annowing neighbors. shit. shit. shit. hell. jologs niyo! tang*na niyong lahat! (sori for that... raaaaaaageee! rawr!)

anyway, before i completely lose my sanity with these people..

I've got some must-read blog-sites for you:

Carlos Celdran: The streetwalker. Man. I got the idea of going to Evangelista St. (in Bangkal Makati) from this guy.

The anonymous waiter: Crazy anecdotes from a struggling waiter in NY

Twisted: Jessica Zafra: Zafra's Twisted is now online!

VJ Ala Paredes: This girl rocks! In case you don't know her, she's the daughter of Jim Paredes (APO Hiking Society).

enjoy reading everyone!

(switches back to fetal position. goddamn neighbors)

DAMN YOUUUUUUUUUUUU neighbors!

sigh!

2006-05-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

Special shout-out:

Happy nth monthsarry to my beshee/sister, Ms. Stephanie Del Rosario (aka Baby pai) and her beau, Mr. Jonas Dela Cuesta (aka Nas)

Cheers to you guys! I hope you stay as in-love as you are right now kahit matanda na kayo. ^_^

Do I hear wedding bells?

Haha.

My fingers are crossed.. :)

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P.S.

Important reminder:

As of today, I go by the name: Earl Javier.

Hahaha... :)

Bullsh*t! It's one of those nonsense posts

2006-05-07T08:58:00.000+08:00

What's wrong with me?

I got into another fight with my dad this morning. Gadd... I can't help being a smart mouth around him all the time! I know it's wrong to disrespect your parents and all (don't get me wrong, I love my family so much!) but I just can't stop my big mouth from making such horrendous comments (I'm like Frankie Muniz's character in Malcolm in the Middle). Seriously, the next time he talks to me, I'm just going to zip it or else... baka pulutin ako sa kangkungan if I continue with this smart mouthing behavior of mine. (better quit being a Philosophy major shit 'round my parents, if you know what I mean. *winks* haha.)

Anyway, moving on... Last night I called up Alex (I met him this summer. He's really nice and he's a great conversationalist. We talk about lots of stuffs. Dreams, fantasies, religion.. Name it and we'd probably encountered it on our paumagahan telethon sessions) because I was feeling kinda lonely. It's because J left for States yesterday morning and I kinda felt sad knowing that it'll probably be the last time talking to him (he might stay there for good). Although it wasn't a major ish that he left, still... I'm used to having him around for 7 years and we've been through a lot. Don't get me wrong here... I don't have any feelings (feelings = i want to get back with him shit) left for him. If steph or anybody in my block decides to leave, I'd be sad too. Hay. So much for that.

Back to the thing with Alex.. We talked about lots of stuffs as usual. We got into an "intellectual" discussion last night about genetics, botany, zoology, tropical fishes, piranhas... Oh I can go all morning telling you all of the things we talked about. Hay. It's really nice finally having someone who's willing to listen! Man. Plus, it's so good to talk about other things besides showbiz chismis, shopping, and love life! He's definitely a keeper. Lol. He's not my new love interest ah! I just like talking to him that's all (and he plays the guitar well! we had a jammin session already). :)

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Swim Count (for Summer 2006) for Abi:

I've been to 2 swimming pools so far. (Community pool + Club Italia)

I've been to 2 great beaches. (Quezon + Batangas)

Future Swimming Plans:

April's offer of another block swimming trip

Yesterday, I went to Club Italia with my family. Hay. I wasn't able to take pictures because I forgot to charge my camphone! (so no camwhoring for a while). Nothing special happened but there were cute guys! Ahihi.. There were like 4 cute-ones (including an uberly hot hot hot hot hottie American guy) swimming and one who was just chillin' out. Haaay. Guy-heaven. Haha. The 100 pesos fee was sooo worth it. Haha. Besides having those cuties 'round, the pool was really big and there were only few people swimming so we were able to enjoy ourselves (especially me). Hehe. :)

Hay. I love love love swimming! :D

Abi switches to daydreaming mode. (water and hot guys involved)

i love this bag..! ^_^

2006-05-04T19:50:00.000+08:00

i want this bag!!

I saw a faux one (in black and gold, and pink and black) in greenhills!

It cost 900 bucks (700 may tawad pa daw) there. hayyy.. :(

I like.

Hay...

:(

Maybe I can score 700 bucks before school starts in june?
Hay... Gandang school bag. Astig. Hay... :(

Baggggg..!

Syete.

Kung may kakilala kayong nagbebenta ng ganitong bag for a lower price, pleaaase tell me! Hay. :( I want this bag.. Huhuhu.. I NEED (desperate) this BAG!

so much for being cursed

2006-05-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

ayun. may kukuwento pala ako...

Kahapon, nagpunta kami ng parents ko sa Tutuban para hanapin yung bag na ipang-reregalo ng dad ko dun sa boss niyang Arabyana. Ayun. On the way dun sa Cluster Building (sa Tutubs), naisipan ng tatay ko na kumain ng penoy (ano bang translation ng penoy sa ingles?) tutal 5 pesos lang naman yung isa. Medyo hesitant nga ako kasi masirain yung tyan ko, saka medyo masakit na nga yung tyan ko nun dahil dun sa ininom kong gamot ng tanghali (nakaka-jebs yung effect nun). Pero dahil gusto kong mag-food trip, sumige na din ako. Kaso, puro bulok yung nakukuha kong itlog. Dalawa na yung nabalatan ko kaso puro bulok! Nyeta! Nakikita ng mom ko yun kaya binabalik niya yung itlog dun sa lot (i mean dun sa mga tumpok). Ayun. Tas nakita nung ale na nagbebenta yung mga nabuksan ng itlog! Pucha! Nabdtrip! Grabe. Tas todo-deny naman yung nanay ko na hindi kami yung nabgbalat nung itlog. Tas ayun. Nagsalita yung ale! Sabi ba naman: "Sana mamatay na yung nagbalat ng mga itlog na to! Sana madapa! Sana masagasaan!" Grabe. Sa harap ko pa sinabi di ba. Takte talaga. Sa halagang 10 pesos. Ay sus. Puro bulok naman yung tinda. Pero grabe. Inisip ko talaga yun. Nawalan nga ako ng ganang mag-shopping eh. Susmaryosep. Sayang talaga. Yun yung naging epekto ng pesteng curse niya sa akin! I lost the will to shop! Napraning kasi ako eh. Hay. Grabe hanggang sa pag-uwi inisip-isip ko talaga yung nangyari. Eh kaso, pano naman kaya kung kinain ko pa din yung itlog di ba? Pano kung nasira yung tyan ko at nagkaroon pa ko ng hepa? Di ba di ba? Hay naku. Moral of this story: Wag kumain ng itlog mula sa tabi-tabi. Baka bulok ang mapunta sa iyo at maisumpa ka pa tuloy nung nagbebenta. o_o' Hay. Nakakatrauma talaga... o_o! Hay. Hindi tuloy ako nakabili ng bag at mga notebook. Peste. Wala tuloy akong gagamitin sa darating na pasukan. Peste. Huhuhu...

Dami pa namang puwedeng bilhin tas parang wala nga akong gana. Huhuhuhu.... Namumutla nga daw ako sabi ng nanay ko eh. Waaaaa. Syete. May gusto pa naman akong bilhin na flats dun. Kulay black na knitted. Tangna talaga. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Syete.

Hirap talaga pag naninirahan ka sa isang bansa na puno ng mga superstitious na mga tao. Mapapraning ka talaagggaaaaaaaa!!!!! Pakshit. Ayun. Hindi naman ako namatay. Hindi rin ako natapilok. Nawalan lang ako ng gana mag-shopping at naligaw lang naman kami. At oo nga pala, naglakad kami ng super layo habang may buhat-buhat na mabigat na mga pinabili. Not bad. Mas ok na din siguro yun kesa nadapa ako o nasagasaan. Hay. :(

Aru. Pupunta na lang ako sa sm. Dun na lang ako bibili ng bagong school bag, notebuk at ballpen. At least dun walang nagbebenta ng bulok na penoy na nanunumpa ng mga namimili sa kanya. lolz. :D

Hay. Gusto kong magpunta sa BORA!!!!!! :(

Bora.
Bora.

May white at brown pala akong havana na flip-flops. Imitation man ng havaianas, ok na din! At least ndi ako matatakot mawala o manakaw sa akin yun. 35 pesos lang naman ang isang pair. Weeheehee. :) Hay. Gusto ko pa palang magkaroon ng pink, red, black, green na ganoong tsinelas. Hehehe. :) 3 for 100 lang naman eh. :)

Hay. Ilang linggo na lang!!!! Tag-ulan na naman!!! Ihanda na ang mga payong, boots, tsinelas at kapote dahil baha na naman! Lolz. Weeeeee..

Hay naku.

Maya na ulit. :)

ola!

2006-05-04T10:35:00.000+08:00

hayyyy..

bored.
bored.
bored.
bored.

i wish it's june already.

not.

haha.

bored.
bored.
bored.
bored.

=p

hay...

2006-05-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

so how's abi these days?

Am doin' ggrrrreat.

I've already graduated from UP Manila (duh. everyone knows that)

Still not decided which med school to go.

nuf of the acads..

I'm enjoying the remaining weeks of my summer vacation...

I've been to 2 (and counting!) great beaches so far!

Have met several nice people (special shoutout to Alex and Sig! :D)

I got allergies right now (I dunno where I got it)

I love my sun-kissed complexion (for the moment)

I've been sleeping late almost everyday (couch potato)

I bought 5 books so far. (I've finished 2 so far)

I'm much closer to my bestfriend steph (:D hi beshee!)

Lookin forward to another swimming trip this weekend.

Still haven't changed the lay-out of this freaking blog.

My Summer Song: Love Generation by Bob Sinclair
(feel the love generation!!)

Hay.

It's amazing how rest can improve your mood.. :)

That's about it. I'm gonna update this blog again when I have something interesting to share. :) Fore the meantime, enjoy the pictures me and Steph took. :)

It's my name in the sand! :) Steph made this. I made her one too (Nas + Steph) to remind her of the trip. :)

There were so many people in the beach at that time. Haha. I guess they're not afraid of having skin cancer. Good thing me and steph found a shade with a recliner. :)

I took this photo of the sea. There were alot of kelp (brown seaweed) and lumot exposed (low tide kasi. :p)

Steph took this photo. It's a bird's nest. My aunt found it near my grandparent's house.

Piggies! I teased steph: "Steph's the mama pig and the litter are her kids." Lol

Arms of the sea urchin lurking from the rock. :)

We got these starfishies from the beach. These guys were supposed to be (steph and nas - overlapped, and me - the biggest starfish)

Sunset at Sigayan Bay. V. romantic!! :p

I took this photo from Quezon beach (unnamed kasi yung beach). hehe. puwedeng pang-post card no? hehe

A fishing vessel. Good thing it was there because we held on to it (high tide, grabe lalim)

Beach wave. :)

Another scenic view of the beach and the mountain (background).

Hay. Yun muna. :)

man!

2006-05-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

forget about my earlier post..

i'm gonna be a kick-ass doctor!
haha. i've decided already and i'm gonna do everythin i can..

I survived 4 years of pre-med in UP..
What's another 4 years di ba?

rightttt...

haha. that's my anti-histamine medication talking to yah.
lolz. (it's a totally different story)

seriously,

I've decided to...

(drum roll please)

become a...

(zzzz... abi fell asleep)

lolz.

go figure it out.

i'm in a freaking cross-road

2006-04-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden..

i dunno if i have what it takes to become a doctor.

shit.

kinda reminds me of this line from bone thugs n harmony's Crossroads..

See you at the crossroads (crossroads, crossroads) so you won't be lonely

hay.

hay

2006-04-25T17:48:00.000+08:00

i saw my tentative class schedule for the next school year.

class sched?

di ba graduate ka na?

hello? med school?

haha. anyway, i've been accepted to university of perpetual help med school and they gave me my class sched already. what? what month is it? is it june already? lol.

anyway, here's my subjects for the first sem(if i decide to push through with uphr):

MedPrac I - Medical Practice
Gr.Ana - Gross Anatomy
Physio - Physiology
Biochem - Biochemistry
Histo - Histology
Psychiatry I - as is
PMed1 - Preventive and Community Health

I already have an idea in physio (duh. ma'am de vera pa lang?), gross ana (from comparative ana or zoo 102), biochemistry (oh chem 40, how do i love thee?), histo (sus. i took this as an elective pa nga eh).

Piece of cake?

Righttt...

NO. YOU'RE WRONG!

Med school's different from Bio (in sooo many ways).

Sabi nga nung nag-interview sa akin...

"If you're prepared to have zero social life, then this the right career path for you."

Lol.

Bring it on..

Bring it on.......

The male species

2006-04-23T08:34:00.000+08:00

Kahapon yung party - party ko kuno. Haha. Dumating yung mga relatives ko at syempre mega-hagot sila. Tameme na lang ako sa kanila. Oh well. At least masaya silang lahat. Hehe. Ayun. Tas nakuwento ko na ata dito yung hinanakit ko sa parents ko. Hay. Basta ako gagawin ko yung lahat ng kaya ko. Wala akong care kahit pilitin nila akong mag-nurse dahil isusuka at isusuka ko lang yung idea na yun. Aru. Basta tapos na yun. Hmm. Nakita mo yung title ng post na ito? The Male species bakit yun? Ayun. Kasi may kuwento ako.

Kahapon ng tanghali kinakausap ko si Chris (nakilala ko sa chat. dahil sa sobrang kawalan ng ginagawa last week, nag-download ako ng mirc at nag-chat). Actually dapat ngayon kami mag-uusap sa telepono (di ko pa binibigay yung # ko sa bahay. aru. hindi rin basta basta ang kinakausap ko sa net. english speaking kaya tong si chris). So ayun. Nagtanong ako ng personal question sa kanya. Tinanong ko kung bakit wala pa siyang gf (inassume ko to kasi sinabi niya sa akin na naghahanap daw siya ng girl na isasama sa cebu). Aba ang sagot sa akin. Meron na daw siyang special someone. So ako naman medyo dumistansya. Syempre. Baka mabola-bola pa ako nito at gawin akong pang-two time dun sa gf niya. Kinausap ko pa din siya ng maayos. Syempre ayoko namang maging rude. Pero syempre may konting censorship na mga sinasabi ko sa kanya. Ayun. Tas nahalata ata. Nagtanong kung bakit. Sinabi ko na yung totoo. Syempre. Alangan namang magsinungaling pa ako. Sabi ko.. Hindi naman siguro tama na maging sobrang close ako sa kanya dahil baka ano yung isipin ng gf niya sa akin. Syempre kung ako din naman yung nasa lugar nung gf niya, natural na magseselos ako. Sa amin nga ni steph, distansya pa din ako sa bf niya dahil kahit mag-best friend kami ni steph at full trust ang loka sa akin, hindi mo pa rin maalis yung selos dahil innate yun sa babae. Umiiral din ang animal instincts nun kahit subconscious. Ang mali naman kasi ni Chris dun eh bakit nagpupunta pa siya sa chatroom kung talagang mahal niya yung gf niya? Di ba dapat mas ilapit mo yung sarili mo sa kanya imbis na mag-aksaya ka ng oras maghanap ng makakausap. Tas. Ito pa ah. Sinabihan pa ako ng: "i really like you abi. u always make me smile. i really enjoy talking to you." whaaat? tangna. ewan ko sa kanya. dapat ang gf mo ang sinasabihan mo niyan. lolz. basta ang end point niyan. hindi na ako nag-reply. lol. last thing na sinabi niya sa akin eh: "please give me a chance." chanceeee? anong chance ang pinagsasabi mo dudung? hahahaha. kumusta naman?? bakit ba kasi inentertain ko pa? haha. malas. oh well. charge to experience na lang abi. eto lang. ndi na ako magagawi ulit dun sa mirc. sus. sa susunod na mabobored ako, itutulog ko na lang. lol. hahaha.

ayun. oo nga pala. mega-bati pala dapat ang drama nitong si windouz sa akin nung graduation ko. Nag-miss call kahapon at with matching text pa. Parang nanunumbat pa. Bakit daw patay yung cellfone ko? Tatawagan daw niya sana ako para batiin. Aru. Ano namang klaseng katarantaduhan yan? Sabi ko tapos na kami. Ampotah. Niloko ko nga para tumigil. Sabi ko binigyan ako ng boquet nung grad. Aba. Todo tanong. Sino daw ang nagbigay? Aru. Bakit concerned ka? Ahh.. Alam ko na. Inggit ka lang no? Aruuu. Haha. Ndi ko na nireplyan pagkatapos dahil sumasakit na ulo ko eh. Haha. Sobrang kakaiba talaga kayong mga kalalakihan. Lol. Kumplikado kayo!

Ayun muna. Maliligo na ako. Wehehe.

hay

2006-04-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

for some reason..

Even if I did graduate yesterday. Even if I did my very best to march with my batchmates. Somehow, I can see that it was not enough for my parents (especially my dad). Sure I saw that they were happy but not that happy. Oh no. I'm not imagining things here. It's true. How true?

This afternoon while browsing the merchandise in duty free, I casually mentioned my plan of going to states at my final year of med proper to my dad (I was inspired by kuya ronnie to take up my internship outside the country). You know what he told me? "Gusto mo palang mag-abroad, bakit hindi ka na lang nag-nursing?" Shit. It's that fucking nursing thing again (excuse me to those who wants to become a nurse). Ilang beses ko bang sasabihin na gusto kong maging duktor! Ayokong maging nurse! At punyeta.. Graduate na nga ako ng bio eh! Let it go na! Shit shit shit!!

Hay. I'm so pissed off. I've got one thing to say to all of them: Pera niyo lang ang ginamit ko para makatapos. Hindi niyo alam kung ilang balde ng luha ang nilabas ng mata ko sa tuwing hirap na hirap na ako. Hindi niyo alam kung ano ang dinanas ko para lang makagraduate. Hindi niyo alam kung ano'ng nangyari sa akin. Hindi niyo alam.. Kaya wag kayong mag-comment dahil wala kayong alam kung paano ko ginapang yung sarili ko makatapos lang. Maging masaya na lang kayo para sa akin. Ito yung buhay na pinili ko. Wag niyo na akong pilitin na mag-nursing dahil punyeta. Kahit anong pilit niyo sa akin.. Hindi ko isasakripisyo ang kaligayahan ko para lang mapasaya ko kayo.

Hay.

I'm really sad. And so frustrated...

The graduate

2006-04-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

Graduate na ko!

I'm soo hapy!

Nuf said!

Pain pain pain

2006-04-18T17:12:00.000+08:00

Ang sakit ng ngipin ko. Waaaahh..

Just got my teeth cleaned!

Waaaaaa..

Wala pa din ako sa mood gumawa ng matinong entry.

Huhuhu

BUM

2006-04-18T08:11:00.000+08:00

Tinatamad pa kong gumawa ng bagong entry. Haha. Later na lang. Weeeeeee

Of aswangs and letting go

2006-04-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

I don't know if I can't do it all over again..

I mean letting go and forgetting someone who had been a part of your life. I haven't mastered this skill yet that's why I'm having a hard time letting go of a recent "tragedy" in my life. I've been trying to make myself busy during the past few days just to erase him from my memory. Hay. Someday we'll know.. Why I wasn't meant for you... (Is it because I don't possess the right sex organ in between my legs?? Tell me!!! Wahhh.)

So much for gay love.

I was a bit depressed ~~this morning~~ the whole day. Why? Steph cancelled our supposed to be all day "swimming" date. The reason? She had her freaking period! :( :( :( Hay. We planned it for weeks only to find out that her freaking period would ruin our fun. Hay. I'm so mad. Up to now! Badtrip!

Hay. Ayan. Nasira yung mood. Naalala ko na naman. Tsss. :s

Ending the hiatus for just a sec...

2006-04-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Para mang-inggit!

Ang sarap mag-swimming!!!!
Ang sarap ng feeling ng walang ginagawa!!!

Grabe.

Ang saya pag alam mong super deserving ka na magpahinga at magsaya. Ang sarap ng feeling na tapos na yung mga dapat mong alaalahanin at ang tanging dapat mong isipin ay ang sarili mo! Hay. Pero minsan naalala ko pa din siya.. Kung kumusta na ba siya, kung ok lang ba siya.. Syempre di pa naman kasi ako totally over kay *toooot* eh. Minahal ko din naman siya no. Saka di ko naman siya niloko. Hay. Enough. Summer post to tas magddrama na naman ako. Ayun.

Sensya na hindi pa din napapalitan ang lay-out ng blog ko. Nag-consider naman ako ng pampalit dito, kaso wala eh, sira at sabog ng kinalalabasan! Kaya hahanap pa ako ng lay-out na ieedit ko kaya saka na! Ang effort kasi. Naka-on vacation nga ang status ng blog na ito. Weeee.. Haha. Sinusulit ko yung natitirang oras.. Paano mag-uumpisa na naman ang pasukan nila steph sa Mapua kaya halos inaaraw-araw na namin ang bonding session namin. :D

Ayun. Basta. I'm making the most out of this week kaya sorry talaga wala kayong makikitang matinong post dito. Weeeee. :) I lurrrrrve summer!!

Nga pala.. I dedicate this song lyrics to you, my past love.. Hay.

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

from: azlyrics.com